For some weird reasons I keep having flashbacks of things that I went though growing up both before and after my injury (like when i was trying to sleep on the weekend thinking mummy will tell off for getting up late for school then promptly scolding myself by saying your a 31 year old women who works your mum isn't going to care and your not going to school tomorrow your manager will care if you dont turn up for work and I've just had another one about sitting cross legged in primary school and the teacher telling off for showing my under wear and not knowing and I've automatically covered the gap between my legs with my dressing gown and I'm sat in my living room, I did have another one on the weekend about my mum telling me off as a teen but I can't remember the details)
Ive never experienced flash back in the last I am going though so many weird things I hate it
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Great sign. It's your brain healing itself. You must be doing something right!! Flashbacks are your body's way of telling you it needs to do some rewiring in 'that particular area'. It so happens that your emotional brain must have got damaged as the things coming up are your negative emotions that you boxed up after the event. Each memory has your associated emotion attached to it. Don't attach to the emotion that comes up during brain healing. Write down the event as you are doing above, note how you felt, how the situation made you feel, then let it go. I would write on bits of paper, then burn them in the fire. It is just your brain rewiring. Think of it like an upside down tree with roots stretching to all areas of the brain. The root strands in a particular area of your brain are causing problems in flow of retrieval which has reactivated old emotional stores.
A non-injured person would be provided with these memories during sleep if during previous days, a similar instance occurred or a similar emotional response was being repeated. Dreams are a way the subconscious can communicate with the conscious brain. In an injured brain, emotions kick up, memories get tossed around, that have ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO DO WITH ANYTHING! LOL As the Buddhists say, allow your mind to become a cloudless sky. These emotions or memories are the clouds that rush across the blue sky of your mind. Know that they are clouds, that the wind will blow them through and away, and your essence of the mind is a pure blue sky, a cloudless sky. So when things pop into your head, during brain injury, sit upright, take a few deep breaths, shut your eyes, see the clear blue cloudless sky, notice the clouds of thoughts and watch them from a distance as an observer. A few more breaths to blow the clouds through and away, and you are good to go. Do not trust these odd things that flash into the mind. This is a good sign in my experience. It is your brain rewiring and healing and settling and organising and putting humpty dumpty back together again.
I would guess you have had an improvement in brain function lately, likely somehow related to the emotions. Something you haven't been able to do for a long time, you are starting to do again. This throws up flashbacks while the new access area rewires itself. These emotions are not real. Tell yourself, it is not real! It is just my brain healing. Congratulations! Stick with it. This too shall soon pass!
For the past few errr years I lie in bed and watch from a 3rd person perspective my brain processing various events or conversations that have happen either though out the day or week and I note things I may have missed it's very weird as I feel I'm floating and my brain. Is meandering down a river normally in day dream mode and when I look back I shock myself at the things I missed and didn't realise I picked up on at that present time as something else had my attention but on some level was still observing stuff around me without realising and as always my "gut instinct" (otherwise known as brain future travels you brain can go both forward and know what's about to happen before it's happen which is why before I was hit my brain went into protection mode or back word known as runamating) has always been on point and I pick up on stuff like body language ect that other people dont again notice and when I highlighted this they go oh yeh that didnt even occur to me making people love me even more
In saying that I have started mindfulness meditation (with a actual therapist not via self help YouTube vids like in the past) to help managed my emotions better maybe that's having a impact on my current outlook on everything like previous posts... Hmmm
Oh and there is nothing wrong with having psychic tendencies of being able to read between the lines and anticipate future events due to past patterns! Introverts are often psychic but they never tell ! The extroverts are too busy dismissing psychic ability to hear ! : ) Happy floating. Buddhist monks will describe a happy daydream mode too during day to day living. That is why they repeat and cite mantras all day long so as to get away from the day to day living. detachment is both healthy and normal in certain cultures!
I do have spirtual believes and have 3 guardian angels (nan, grandad and a power male who I talk to on a daily basis) I believe in the universe and dream catchers and when I'm in the mood go to a spirtual church and I sometimes pick up on people good aura in work and negative people drain and suck the life out me which is why I think I'm much happier without my mum and my ex bf and I much prefer my own companionship and for about the past week I've been lucid dreaming (natually not invoked) and remembering them which again have never done
Whilst in hospital I had what I call a lucid memory from when I was 3-4 years old. The thing that hit me like a steamroller was how it felt to be 3, the world was big and overwhelming, feeling so small with the adults as my harbor.
I know you've been going through some really hard times, so thoughts of those who protected you seem to make perfect sense to me.
There must be so many memories inside us, that normally we're not granted access to but during stress those routes suddenly open up, it's probably meant to make us feel safe. However our belief system, science, makes us scared of the emotional aspects of our mind.
But having said all that homeostasis is the important thing and sometimes talking these things through allows the mind to find 'peace'.
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