29, Male, TBI victim

Hey Cat

Thanks for replying. Yeah, I can't deny it - I'm a tad lost, lonely and having to deal/cope with this freakin brain injury. I've seen much much better days, but equally, I've had far worse so I guess I should stop whinging and suck it up.

My best friend and in reality my only 'real' friend lives in Sweden (he's Swedish) so hanging with him, tearing up the streets of Stockholm lol just isn't possible anymore.

Cordoba is abou 2 1/2 hour drive from Sotogrande (near Gibraltar) where I previously, up until about 2 weeks ago lived with my chica, but my 'roots' are in Marbella and no, I don't really talk to my old "friends" because after my crap/accident I stopped all contact with my old life and people. The only one that I stayed connected to is Tobias, but as I said, he's in Stockholm, Sweden so we never see each other.

Half of my family are from and live in Madrid so I don't have anyone here in Cordoba, but post-accident I can't financially afford either Marbella or Madrid or any bigger economy city/location.

I went from £43,000 a year salary (bank) to being on a £550 a month pension from Germany (I'm a German national) so I'm not impoverished, but not exactly well off so I'm for lack of a better description - broke and stuck.

I have a hell of a lot to be grateful for though and I know that Cat. 90% of motorcycle accidents like mine result in death and even when they live they are one doing just that; living. The specialists told my wife if I do wake up, I will pretty much not recover and they wanted to arrange a transfer to a 'hospice' type setting and thankfully, after 4 and a bit months, I came out of my coma and as you most likely know, I was still 'la-la land' and after being transferred to Walkergate Park for rehabilitation I didn't feed myself at first, walk, talk, walk and even the day I left Walkergate I was still in my trusty wheelchair, but after 2-3 weeks of daily backyard walking training I finally regained my ability to walk, talk (I'm a bit of a weirdo in the sense I am 3 nationality person so my family only speak German and Spanish so I had to not learn 3 languages, but I had to reacquaint myself with them so I could speak, write and read fluidly and without pauses). I'm assuming my english is 100% at the level it has always been and hoping you're not clutching onto your Babelfish app while reading this lol

Basically Cat, I was your typical as*hole on his superbike (Ducati 848) on an English country lane doing 140+ mph when dumb di*k here hit a wet patch in the road and came flying off at very very high speed and my neck became caught on a farmers perimeter fence and my brain smashed against my skull (lights out) & over 4 months of the dedicated medical team at the RVI in Newcastle saying I might die, I didn't and now I'm here either boring you or you're expecting an authors signature at the end of all this

Roger - I feel ya man and I feel a little better after seeing your profile pic lol. My hair feels more acceptable now so thanks

hey man thanks for reachin out I replied to you at the bottom of my reply to Cat

Good to know, thanks

We sold our home in Benahavis (Marbella area) and moved to the NE to be near Donna's family in Durham. We found an absolutely stunning stone house in Northumberland and moved there. 6 weeks later, my accident happened.

Hey!! You know I'm like most after a TBI, awake and alert in the morning, but by 2pm I'm really mentally fatigued and almost blowing bubbles so I read earlier what I posted on here last night and thought instantly "my god Markus do not expect anyone to talk to you after that verbal diarrhoea" lol, but here you are! I a bit earlier explained my accident and subsequent recovery which is still ongoing over 4 years later so if you take a sec to read what I replied to Cat

I read a little of your profile and moments afterwards felt like a steaming pile of dung because my brain near-destruction was completely my fault, but your health problem wasn't at all avoidable so yeah wow you're really brave and your story gives idiots like me an eye-opener that I need to lighten up a bit or start sucking a gas pipe because there are people out there like you that were dealt a bad hand from birth, but persevered by 'grabbing the bull by the horns'.

Man thanks, that was actually insightful and uplifting. Not sure you were goin for that Bards, but holy jesus I'm a believer now!

The volunteering suggestion: I have attempted to volunteer to both a church locally and a language school in town here, but the church only need service-related help and while I'd love to light a few candles and help collect with a money plate, I want to do something that impacts my recovery in a more impactful way.

The language school thing: They only offer staffing positions that are more full-time and I don't know if I want to do that, but thanks for suggesting that - I'll be thinking about that today and a healthy commission percentage I could give you for helping me see the 'light'

that's legitimately a very good idea! I've been a fequent user/member of Paypal for about 11 years and can say backed by experience - Paypal have truly NEVER done a single thing wrong regarding transactions of mine whether in or out so I agree with you

Thanks for the wishes & for the solid suggestion.

-Markus