Its taken me quite a while to get up the guts to write this first post and share my thoughts as I'm usually a "suck it up and get on with it" kind of person but am struggling to do this right now for the first time in my life.
I'm 38 and recently (well 7 weeks ago) suffered a SAH out of the blue whilst exercising at the gym. It was horrendously stressful couple of hours with the gym staff, paramedics and doctors all believing I had just over done it exercising. Meanwhile, mostly conscious but unable to speak I knew exactly what was happening to me as I'd seen my mum die of the same thing 8 years ago.
Eventually they worked it out and I was lucky enough to be able to have my anuersym coiled but unlucky enough to have developed a blood clot in my main leg artery where they put the catheter in so on top of the brain stuff I'm currently unable to walk far and not able to retur to work.
In general my recovery has been fairly smooth but I've noticed I'm unable to keep my emotions in check, I'm crying at the drop of a hat and seem to be unable to make a decision on the simplest of things (even Christmas presents!) I have loads of family and friends that are trying to help but I can't help feeling so alone, like none of them can really understand what I'm going through.
So I thought I'd reach out to all of you, did you experience a similar loneliness and does it get better as time goes by? I hope so but don't want to wish my life away at the same time.....