I used to be a university lecturer, but I got 'Voluntary Severance because my department is closing down. That was at the end of June. I thought I wanted to go into teaching, but all the courses I applied to turned me down. I was gutted, but now I've actually decided that they were all probably right, and teaching isn't for me.
So, I'm looking for an office-based 'Administration' job. I am aiming for universities, just because I know the system so well.
I have had 6 interviews (and I have another one this Wednesday). One of them was rubbish. It was really, really awkward to get to, and the interview was miles away from the one I had applied for. I had no idea why it was so far away. And I still don't. It was actually a 'pre-interview', for a job I never applied for, and don't want. Ridiculous!
I am a bit bothered because a few of the universities effectively say "If you are disabled, we will always interview you." Now, did I get the five interviews that I have had, because I deserved them, and had a real chance? Or was it only because I am 'disabled'. "Well, we have to invite her in, and talk to her, so we look like we are being fair, but she hasn't really got a chance!" I have no experience of this office-based administration, but, realistically, I haven't got a hope in hell of getting another job like my lectureship. I had been there for 6 years before the accident, and after 18 months on sick-leave, they eventually let me go back, but any other university would say "She is 'blind', and has bad balance, so she can't do geological fieldwork. Why would we want a geology lecturer who can't do fieldwork? And she has done no research since she went back..." I use to do lots of good research. but then I fell off my bike.
So, I am worried. I haven't found a job yet. Maybe they are looking at me and thinking "Well, she has coped admirably well with that awful Brain Injury business, and she deserves another chance." But maybe they are thinking "Oh well, we have to interview her, to 'give her a chance',and tick all the boxes. But she doesn't have a real chance, because she doesn't have the right experience."