Oh boy what a ride I have been on this week.... Apart from Wednesday where I got a problem solved without going into battle, and my partner attending and enjoying a new activity group. The rest of the week has been very tiring both mentally and physically. I am having to push myself so hard to maintain this house. As anyone who has an old house they bite back at you. If I don't push myself to look after things repair or improve things. I am also having to keep the place clean, at times I feel like I am dragging myself around. This morning was a drama, my partner is a nightmare with coffee, always drinking it, and continually spilling it. On worktops in the kitchen the floor, door, then he's splashed it up the wall in the lounge. With about a week apart he has spilt coffee in the same place on the lounge carpet (has cream in it so it shows badly). This morning he went into the lounge with no light on, didn't see our dog tripped spilt it on the floor and sofa and lost his temper with Coco the dog. I am tired of being the only who cares about what we have, I know they're material things but I don't have much in my life and have always from a child always looked after things. When your mainly housebound your only environment is precious to you.
I was looking forward to my first trip out in a while but it was marred with some of his moods. I couldn't even go round one shop without being rushed. I've go round tonight switching things off, tidying up and sorting things out. He is officially my carer, but more and more I'm doing the caring. Sorry to moan just needed to get my frustrations out
Hope you all have a good weekend x