late one tonight - cant sleep and have made a blunder.
You know I have problems with my 'projects' at home getting out of hand, but normally they don't effect anyone other than myself (apart from spending that money last year)
My partner has a wooden carved wall clock he made when he was young, it has a lot of memories and he is very very proud of it. He put it up in my office at home and so I complimented him on it and said I liked it. Had to he is so proud of it, but I really don't like it.
Fact is, he was looking for the clock yesterday and I said I hadn't seen it in ages, not for a long time. as I wasogs towlsaying the words a really horrible feeling came over me, I know what people men now by feeling emotionally sick. It flooded back to me that weeks/months ago I was having one of my 'episodes' with acting like an unrestrained wild animal trying to improve everything around me, doing maybe 2 or 3 arty projects at one time. I suddenly recalled in my memory that I had decided to help the clock improve and no kidding, I got a small hack saw from the garage and trimmed the edge off the corner of the wood of the clock. Before I knew it I had sawed the clock to bits, what a mess, whaat a waste - it was a lovely bit of polished walnut. I remember now hiding it in an old dogs towel and putting it in the neighbours bin.
At the moment he is like a sad child still trying to think where it might be and I don't have the heart to admit I have destroyed it, so I am still lying to him. I didn't mean to destroy something precious to him, I really really had it in my stupid mind I was going to improve things - feel sick in the tummy.
I hate lying to him, they are always just little white lies 9like I like the clock) any advice from anyone as to what I should do ? now not only will he think about how I could destroy the clock, but also that I have been lying - which we both hate.