Hi all. Woken early again, 2 hours ago to be exact and just been lying here thinking, not good I know and wondering what happens now.
After reading the posts recently and doling out my brand of wisdom! I thought it was about time I lived y it myself.
It's been a tough 4 years fighting back to where I am now but there is still a way to go before I can say I am satisfied.
I do a lot of analysing myself and the situation. Yes my illness was bad, much worse than I care to admit but I've not done fighting yet.
So action now to be taken: I'm so unhappy when I see the recent holiday photos, 15 extra kilos does not sit well on me so action, join the gym the only way to shift it is to increase the exercise, 2 sessions of swimming a week is not enough so I must add the gym in. I had a look at it last week and there's lots of machines in there I can use so all good.
I'm going to get hubby to print me out copies of a photo taken at my daughters21st in Dec 2010, just 14 months before my illness, that's the real me the one I want to get back to. A copy is going in my purse and one on the fridge, although I don't overeat, I do indulge in the odd ice cream or biscuit, I have to stop it one extra calorie is one too many.
Monday starts my counselling, I hope this works, I need to get the anger out that's not helping.
Wednesday sees the appointment at the neuro-optometrist see if he can help with my balance issues. I know the loss of peripheral vision doesn't help that, he may find something else that's been missed.
And I found a website yesterday for neuro-physio so may go for an assessment with them, the physio after discharge left so much to be desired, if I have to pay so be it, I know we shouldn't have to, but principles are all well and good!
So, 1st Aug 2016 hopefully is the start of my new quest, I'm even feeling like I can try driving again now. My GP said never say never, and the spatial issues j had seem to have settled ow, so maybe now is the time.
Sorry it's a bit long winded, but the optimism has crept back in thankfully.
Take care all