15 months on , woke up this morning and can't sleep now, its quarter past five and have filled up the dish washer again and made a cup of tea, just sitting here reflecting now. Its been a funny old year, I'm 60 now but it seems like I've only just woken up to what's really important in life. Its taken a long time but I feel like I may get closer to how I used to be, I'd like the balance problems to go away and my sight to improve, but I can cope if this is as good as it gets. I feel different today, can't explain it, that tea tasted good, first good cup in 15 months, that was part of the problem, my taste changed, hated chocolate at first! but now its ok, can still take it or leave it but it no longer tastes disgusting! I am so lucky on so many fronts, I really do know how much my family love me, I knew before but something like this brings everything home. I can't wait to see what the next 20 years bring, but I will approach it carefully, won't overdo things or take anything or anyone for granted. That's the trouble now doing things at a reasonable pace, having patience, I have the DWP to tackle, they say I'm fit for work, but I wouldn't employ me, I'm a liability but that's to come yet, something to look forward to at least I'm getting stronger mentally each day, even if the body is weak.
My garden is starting to look like someone loves it again, I can manage 20mins at a time before I need to rest, but its amazing what you can do with determination. I am having a hair cut today, so will pick up something for Fathers day while I am in Manchester, that'll be it for today though will have to rest when I get home, daughter no2 will be home from London later she has a hospital appointment tomorrow so that's tomorrow taken care of.
My sister will hopefully read this, I'd be lost without her, she rings me everyday and I love her so much I can't express it in the right words, must be tired really so will go back to bed, my husband will be waking in an hour and a half for work, sorry to bore anyone who has read this, had to get all those words out, no matter if they're not read, keep saying I'll keep a journal, I just feel it flows better if I write when I want to.
Take care anyone who has slogged through this