I got a phone call today whilst at work from Cumbria care. I thought it was for mark. I explained we don't need any care for him we are taking care of mark. The lady on the phone said no I'm calling for you we want to help you. What a fool i felt when i broke down in tears in the middle of my office!
I'm a very private person you see. My mam used to say i was as deep as the ocean. I've had to be strong all my life with one thing or another.
She knew i was reluctant to talk and offered to come and see me and our daughters who are both living at home and are care workers 25 and 19. They think it's a good idea. In their words. You need to live too mam 😢
I'm very mixed up today. I feel i bring out the negative in mark alot. Maybe it's because i work (have to ) and by time i get home marks tired. I just wish he would say or do something to let me know I'm not totally invisible.
Maybe it's time to talk but I'm scared. Not told anyone anything about these last few months and no one has asked how I'm doing.
I'm sorry think I'm feeling abit sorry for myself today. Your my unknown out let xx