Hello everyone, jules here.
I have caused some things to change in the near future and am now more than a little worried i shouldn't have meddled.
As you know i am still working for the same employer i have been for 26/7 years. No longer in the same capacity to pr accident thou (i am now min wage and part-time from home). I think it was my previous length of service and a general 'feel sorry for her' thing that kept my employment going since the crash (6 years ago).
I haven't been able to produce any work for work for months (maybe a` year now). I try and try until i feel sick, but just go around in circles. So, time must be coming where someone questions if my employment should continue. Me included, i am riddled with guilt.
My employer is a private charity and they have just opened a second new shop nearby me. Its a charity shop just selling the usual stuff like clothes and things I think.
The reason i am telling you this is I sent an email yesterday to work to say my work is nearly ready for them (i lied, i have nothing to give them yet). Then in the second paragraph i said ' when you pick this work up i will be hounding you for more little admin jobs i can do at home for you' - then continued 'you dont need anyone to work in your new shop do you?'.
To my surprise they said they would like me to work from there if i felt up to it and can i tell them how many hours and what days.
I replied and said thats fantastic .
What have i done ! I only did it because i am so worried i will loose my job when they eventually find out i cant produce the work i am supposed to.
I rarely go out of the house now and am still negotiating with dvlc to get my driving license back. I am worried now that there will not be work there that i can do - there must be mustn't there ?
Have i made a big mistake or was it good i made a change ?