What it says. Apparently he's " fine" according to my SIL and doesn't want visitors or any fuss - I can believe that completely. I've tried to be understanding and supportive of her, after all I've been there twice with my own husband. What I'm struggling with is how detached I feel. This is the only blood relation I have contact with and yes, I'm a little bit upset but actually I'm ok. I feel like I should be devastated because I love him to bits, he's the only reason I still have a home and an up-to-date mortgage since falling almost 2 years back. I've been out looking for employment since and not getting anywhere, he still helps me out when he can.
And yet I feel, IDK, nothing really. Distanced, detached? I almost cried, but couldn't quite do it.
I've lost most of my friends in the last few years, I just expected to "feel" more for someone I love being in such a bad place.
I hate this limbo, just want my old self back