I've been reading over the responses to my first post and thought I should touch base and update.
I haven't been on here in months and started to in the last couple days for some motivation and encouragement. There has been some progress( practicing to focus on the positive) and a lot of setbacks in the past few months that has left me so exhausted. Been getting lots of assessments to get rehab\therapy started. Have seen an Occupational Therapist twice and been discharged from a speech and language therapist. On my own when I can I do little crosswords and memory games. I have so many delays and everytime things begin to start to go in the right direction it all goes haywire. My partner is exhausted as we still do it all on our own and its crunch time. Also I've had 2 friends in the past week who thought I would be back out to work already. I started to feel ashamed then I thought to myself I was thinking like that 6 month ago and realise not just yet hence getting all the info gathering. My goal is to be in some sort of part time work before the end of year at least cause life goes on. In May it will be 2yrs since surgery
I've had another upheaval in my life which might mean me starting the whole process over again. new GP, new area,new help. Right now it seems a huge challenge amongst other things. I do not know how I'm doing all this stuff on my own. It is very stressful which is not good for my health. It is hard. I still have no outlet or routine which is what I'm working towards and now major upheaval. I am yet to find the positive in this new upheaval and I'm afraid and worried. the few friends I have are all caught up with their lives and stuff and ones I shared deep stuff with I have stop saying anything to them about what I'm going through and I just talk about the positive.
There I've got some stuff of my chest.More will come out eventually. I hope I don't come across as complaining, cause I am not and I know I have a lot to be thankful for.
How are you all doing?