Well a long time ago, my partner used to enjoy doing amateur dramatics, and he is now looking at getting an evening job in a theatre due to our financial situation.
I feel really guilty, my business is on the brink of collapse, no news yet from the DLA, sick pay will soon stop and was only £200 this month.
Now if he does get this job at the theatre, is he doing it for himself or me or both, If it is something he really wants to do then fine, I have no issue, but I hate the fact he might be being forced into it because of me.
Also, and this is selfish, I will not see him if he gets this job, he will have to go right from his 9-5 job, I rely on him for help a lot, with washing (I do this in the evening with his support usually except at weekends when it could be any time), cooking and just love spending time with him, I know he is probably doing this due to the need for money.
I need to get back to work but I am currently unable, I am trying to think of things I could do.
Social Services have not got back regarding my assessment, I will chase this Tuesday. I will also chase the referral for Neuropsychotherapy from my GP, as when I checked they had not received my referral, I really need Social Services to fund me to go to headway twice week I just think it will help me, I am getting really desperate now and have no idea what to do, he keeps telling me not to feel sorry for myself.
My pain is better and I am managing on a lot less pain relief, I can also sleep through the night now, I walk much better with a stick. I still worry about going out due to a few embarrassing incident with needing to pass urine and not getting to the destination on time, but do not walk like a drunk and get funny looks any more.
I am slowly recovering, but will it be in time to avoid financial disaster, I do so hope so.