Hi everyone!
I'm updating you on my wife Kim's recent visit to Salford Royal Hospital.
She was referred here as her Neurologist feels her FND is stress related and felt that she should see a Neurological/Psychologist.
The Lady we seen I have to admit was a lovely person who was very easy to talk to and truly had empathy for people with this condition.
We put many questions to her and in all honesty, she had to admit that there's part of this condition that she doesn't have the answers to, in relation to why it comes on.
She felt Kim was not depressed and was handling this very well although she felt Kim was anxious, but taking into account the symptoms she deals with, this was understandable and she felt Kim didn't have to go on any depressant medication.
One thing she did bring up with this was interesting to me and i'm curious as to what you all think on this.
She talked about soldiers in world war 1 who went through some terrible stressful events, and after coming out of the war, started suffering symptoms exactly the same as FND.
Now these soldiers had said that stress couldn't have caused their symptoms because they were tough minded individuals doing their jobs as soldiers.
The point i'm getting at is this.
The Neurologist had told us that one of the interesting things about FND in her experience with patients with movement disorders, is that a high majority of people who had it were very strong and positive minded individuals, were people who tended to be highly driven in their actions, be it work or whatever.
She felt that it's like a pressure valve that has suddenly busted, and in relating it to the soldiers experiences, it's as if the body has suddenly broke down through hidden stress etc that the individual has kept inside - a bit like post traumatic stress disorder and that the brain signals have gone into overdrive.
I had to be honest and as I've always said, Kim was experiencing a high amount of stress at the time she collapsed and she was and still is a very driven person by temperament.
I had to ask her that if stress is a cause, or part of it, why do children who are very young and are not stressed, manage to get FND.
She was very honest and had to admit that these questions are still unknown and she even admitted that she has seen fellow Neurology colleagues side sweep FND because if the brain scan has come back normal, then all must be ok, which I know many of you have experienced in your own appointments.
Her honesty was very refreshing to hear I have to admit and I respected her.
She had a really nice and in-depth discussion with Kim and advised her to carry on doing the things she enjoys and did ask her if she wanted to be referred to counselling to see if this could be of benefit but Kim is leaving that option open.
She was well aware of John Stone as I had brought my copy of one of his reports to her but she had to admit that there's still a long way to go and underfunding is a major issue in getting the support out there.
She feels she doesn't need to see Kim again so we're basically having to get on with it and keep on marching on as we have to do on this site.
Kim has now been recently diagnosed with Pericarditis, fluid and inflammation around the heart, which makes her out of breath a lot and is waiting to see a Cardiologist.
I asked this lady if she felt all this was connected as in like autoimmune causes, but she felt it wasn't and ironically enough, her own Nephew in America has Esoinophilic Esophagitis, and he's only 7 years of age and Kim has this also.
Now we're back to the same old question, does stress cause it or contribute to it?
In all honesty, I really do not know, but as Kim collapsed whilst under stress, i'm tending to feel that it has had a role in it and a major one at that and I recall a Paramedic saying to me and Kim about how stress has a massive impact on the body.
I told the Neurologist about this site and about how many people are told the same thing about stress causing FND and how it upsets them and she was very understanding and I also asked her why is it that some people undergoing enormous stress don't get it.
She really couldn't explain it and I respected her for it because she had total empathy for people with this disorder which I liked.
She's now writing a letter for Kim as i'm having my fourth attempt at getting Kim rehoused into a Bungalow but it's a hard fight and I won't give up because i'd rather drop fighting for my wife's cause than sitting back.
Sorry for the long post but we'd appreciate all your replies because we are all in this together and we have to keep on fighting, although it gets tiring at times.
On a final note, we watched a programme the other week about a gentleman who had lost both his hands and had artificial one's fitted.
He has managed to start to retrain his hands to do tasks again and yet i'm asking myself this question; if his brain can make the signals go to his hands, why is it that people with FND can't do the same and they are trying so hard to do so?
It's a question I forgot to bring up - sorry folks!
Loving wishes to you all.
Tony & Kim xx