Everyday it feels like motherhood is further and further from my grasp. I just want to lay down and cry. My poor fiancé does everything he can to cheer me up, and I feel guilty that I can’t muster up a convincing smile. He tries so hard, but in the end there is nothing either of us can do to make it better. Maybe it’s time to start considering the fact that we might never be parents, and actually accepting it. I try really hard to stay positive and I don’t mean to bring anyone else down. I just really need to vent. They say it will happen when you aren’t trying, have sex every day, relax. Its hard, its hard being TTC. Im depressed all the time, I can’t can’t even start trying again until my stupid period ends and it seems like that day will never come. I’m just tired of feeling so helpless.