Hi all,
First of all, I don't know what to think about it, I had a 100% mindset that this 5th FET wouldn't work, and I was already planning everything for our final 6th.
Not to mention the whole stress because my progesterone was low on the day of the transfer, the whole issue that the clinic gave me the wrong needles for Lubion - double the size! of what I should be using... they did send me the correct one the next day but for the 1st shot I had to use this massive needle, and I am terrified of needles.
I promised myself that I would wait and test EARLIEST 6dpt but here I go, like a cheater, took the test 4dpt this Saturday🤦♀️thinking the whole time, what the hell am I doing, wasting a good test.
And the shock that it came back positive, because it was visible positive even earlier than my earliest ever positive test.
I know that everything can turn and it can start fading, or something can be wrong again and end up in MC before or after the viability scan, unfortunately we have too much experience with losses like that.
I don't know what to think now, or feel. I was sure I will be happy but I don't feel this way, just pure panick. And these thoughts - if this is what I really want? What if I will get another heartbreak, there are so many things that can go wrong and it just won't leave me alone 🙈