TWW is excruciating

[Gofly84]

In all honesty I know I’m writing this post to get me feelings out and not because I have a question. The TWW is excruciating because up till now you are used to the activity (injections, scans etc.) which though stressful in themselves is progress. This is our third try and the TWw feels the worst so far, you’d really think you’d get better at it but instead the disappointment of the previous cycles doesn’t leave you. I had pretty notice cramps for 4-5 days post day 5 transfer which by now have subsidised. They felt period like but I tend to have pretty easy periods in the sense of not much cramping or discomfort, so though period like they do feel unusual for me. One night I woke up with really bad cramps after a dream…again don’t remember that anything like that in my previous TWW. But for some reason I guess yo could say I’m expecting spotting which would indicate something is happening and hopefully I’m BFP but since the cramps have subsided I feel low thinking my embryos haven’t done well (I had a double embryo transfer) and we’ve not been successful this around.

I just thought I’d share my story as reading so many of yours words and posts has been helpful in this time where you feel like you can’t talk to anyone else.

Best to all x

[silvervn]

I just wanted to send some love and baby dust to you. If it helped I had bad cramps in the beginning and my clinic said it was the progesterone I was on, these did subside. I honestly could think of nothing else in my TWW, but going to back to work after 5 days helped me as I was then busier. I really hope it goes as quick as it can for you and you get your magical positive result. Here if you want to chat xxx

[Gofly84 in reply to silvervn]

Thank silvern, any words of encouragement mean a lot, as well real life experience like you’ve shared because Google is such a rabbit hole. I did think maybe I’m having side effects from the progesterone as mine was really high when we went in for the transfer.

[silvervn in reply to Gofly84]

I was on Cyclogest 400, three times a day and it really felt similar to period pains. My clinic had told me to expect it but I still found it stressful so I understand. I had to step back from Google but I did early test and I tested a lot! It’s such a whirlwind of emotions. I hope you’re managing to sleep and get good rest xxx

[MyeggsRfab]

I'm currently on day 4 of my TWW I have my usual backpain and tiredness don't really feel any different from my usual monthly cycle... I've bought my pregnancy tests on Amazon to stop me from testing they arrive next week.... Yes can understand feeling low this is our 5th attempt and it's that doubt creeping in again... Then being positive, then low again, it's just an ongoing rollercoaster... sending you TWW vibes, I'm going to tidy the house and put a wash on and go get some groceries sending lots of💖💖

[Gofly84 in reply to MyeggsRfab]

Sending good vibes your way….stay positive and I am keeping my fingers crossed for a BFP for you!! Xx

I am having such a rollercoaster time I’ve been considering doing my test this weekend rather than mid next week to put me out of my misery..aghh. Im feeling better than I did yesterday so will have to see how the weekend goes.

[MyeggsRfab in reply to Gofly84]

Yes definitely I find if those wee creeper thoughts are coming in, have a glass of water and proceed to watch a movie or something take it easy, sending BFP vibes to you lovely 💖💖

[Kitkat10]

I agree, it is excruciating. I had 7 transfers in total and thought each TWW would cause less anxiety but it didn’t. On my last TWW, I caught norovirus on day 6p5dt, it was awful and i definitely thought it was all over, but it was successful, which is shocking considering his ill I was for 48h.

Each time I thought ‘I’ll just carry on as normal’ but I didn’t 🙈. I did realise though that I couldn’t read the symptoms at all and with my BFP it was a total shock.

Good luck and I hope the time passes smoothly x

[Gofly84 in reply to Kitkat10]

So great to hear about your BFP! x

This process messes with your mind and gives you surprises along the way…you look for signs in everything and what you’re wanting appears out of the blue one day!

[Linny12]

In my TWW I was constantly googling everything then convinced my shoulder pain was a sign of an ectopic instead of holding my phone for prolonged periods. Hope you get a BFP x.

[Gofly84 in reply to Linny12]

Linny12 that actaully made me chuckle..needed that. The Tww certainly makes us a little cuckoo!

[Doodlebug23]

7 times for me and it never got any easier! I hate the way progesterone mimics all sorts of symptoms. I had varying ones at varying times in each 2ww and none of it meant anything! I also did variations of testing and for me waiting till OTD was the least stressful. When I tested early and got a BFN the wait till OTD was so much harder. Staying in the blissful PUPO was better.

Sending lots of positive vibes and 👶🏼 ✨

[Crie1983]

I’m on day 3 of the TWW and this is my 7th cycle. Each wait is as anxious as the last and it can feel quite lonely. It’s so hard to think of anything else. So I totally sympathetise with how you feel. I am sending lots of love and positivity that you get the outcome you so clearly deserve. Will be thinking of you. X

[Ivf270324]

I had cramps day 4/5 pdt and they all disappeared after that, i did then have BFP day 10…. Sending positive vibes to you ❤️ xxx

[rainbowbaby8320]

it’s just awful isn’t it! I can’t really say anything of comfort - wish I could! At least you had some symptoms! Xx I find this bit the worst too…

I’m in 2ww and nothing!! 😟 I normally at least get implantation cramps! This time I did IUI so I am suspecting the egg wasn’t ok and it didn’t even make it to blastocyst… I’m more calm without knowing though which is weird! I think the drugs make everything a million times worse too - this time I did a completely natural cycle…

I hope it works for you this time xx

Sending you baby rainbows! 🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈

[Gofly84 in reply to rainbowbaby8320]

Sending you positive vibes xx

Reading messages on this thread some ladies haven’t had any symptoms so don’t lose hope 💫

[rainbowbaby8320]

also just wanted to add that some women have said on the only cycle where they got no symptoms they got BFP! So I think you really can’t tell! Xx Try to keep busy x x

[Lenley81]

I’m on day 3 of the TWW. This is my third round. The embryo they put in was pretty low quality (same as my last round) so I feel like I don’t have much hope. That’s actually making the TWW easier as I’m not expecting to be pregnant. I’m almost not wanting the TWW to end as at least while I’m in it there’s a tiny bit of hope.

[Gofly84 in reply to Lenley81]

I’ve read stories of so called low quality embryos leading to pregnancy so wishing you all the best xx

[Lenley81 in reply to Gofly84]

Thank you x

[leo1980]

hey! Just wanted to say I had no symptoms during both my BFP’s. No spotting. No noticeable progesterone upsets either and I am on prontogest and Cyclogest. The TWW went quickly as I intentionally took extra projects with tight deadlines so I didn’t have time to Google or worry. The first BFP I didn’t expect it to work as I was absolutely fine! I went to do my blood test in the morning and went to work. I skipped my medicine and returned sharps bin. Nurse didn’t call until 3pm! By then I had missed 2 doses of my meds! Not to mention I chucked the scan in the bin that morning the one they give you on Embryo transfer day! Dog walker retrieved it from the bin after the nurse had called. She couldn’t understand my confidence that it hadn’t work.

Second round , we did the blood test on Saturday morning and then set off to Twickenham for the 6 nations, this was hard as we were both sitting in the pub with soft drinks waiting for call so we order actual drinks! If it was a negative it was going to be cracking night if it was positive we had leave 5 min before the final whistle to make it back for my prontogest oil injection. My husband suggested we take it with us and he would just inject me somewhere on our way back but I didn’t want to get told off for having a needles if I got searched at security and I just knew it didn’t work so it didn’t seem worth the hassle! When the nurse called to say HCG was in the 290 or something. We both couldn’t believe it. Even the nurse said ‘this is good news guys’ it took a while to sink it. But the key thing is I knew nothing - I felt nothing. I just thought I would know, woman’s intuition and all! 9 weeks today (I did a scan mid week) and still no symptoms. Aside from occasional butterflies in my tummy (and I mean very rarely) I have no symptoms. Don’t rule yourself out. Until we have a test result on the OTD you are in the running. I know it’s hard to keep talking meds and the not knowing etc but it’s 10-14 days. Keep busy and do lots of nice things for you! Pedicure, manicure. Facial etc it will fly by! Best of luck xx

[Gofly84 in reply to leo1980]

Loved hearing your story….just goes to show everyone’s experience is so different! Congrats on the growing little one xx

[leo1980 in reply to Gofly84]

Just don’t want you think you are out and worry unnecessarily. No symptoms mean nothing. That 6th sense/womans intuition which I thought I had - I didn’t. I had my egg donor consultation whilst I was 6 weeks and 3 days at the clinic (with another clinic) whilst I was having my intralipds (2nd round) i had made the appointment before my last transfer and I just expected it won’t work so I put a plan In place for next steps! There is just know way to know until test day. IVF Is so so hard. One hurdle after the other.. have a little bit of faith in the process now. And look after yourself 💋

[Keels1]

I am on 3dpiui. This is my third iui but about my 14/15th time trying to conceive. Baby dust to us all ✨️