Just wanted to wish everyone a Merry Xmas. Whatever stage you are at with your journey I hope you can enjoy at least some of this season.
I’ve been feeling ok and almost positive but tonight it’s just hit me like a ton of bricks. After 5 failed transfers in the past year I’ll be glad to see the back of 2023. My journey is not as long as lots on here, and not as traumatic as some with heartbreak and losses. But tonight I’m really feeling that emptiness of not having that little person either growing or here to spoil. Not part of that scenario or part of the out celebrating Xmas eve is making me feel totally out in no man’s land.
Sorry for the rant/depressing post, but nobody else really gets it like you amazing bunch on this forum.
I’m lucky I have family and a lovely nephew who’s experiencing his first Xmas excitement, and I can’t wait to see him tomorrow.
So tomorrow I will put my big girl pants on and enjoy what the day brings. X