Heartbroken

[Givemesunshine1]

I’m scared. Official test day 2 days ago- negative. Yesterday negative, today negative. All the clear blue tests I could see a very mild squinted line that turned into Evap line after the test time. My husband can see the squinter each time.

The digital test negative & I feel my period coming today so I know negative but I feel heartbroken & scared to stop trying, to stop the medication incase embryo is implanted but just taking longer???

I can’t give up?

if I tell the clinic there’s a faint line they might do a blood test but I’d have to pay & it’ll still be upsetting when it’s a real squinter of a faint line. The sort u can’t photograph.

In my whole fertility journey & all the tests I’ve done I’ve never seen this or evaporation lines.

[JA-fnuk Partner Nurse Fertility Network UK]

Keep taken your medication as directed and repeat your test in a day or two - being sure to use your 1st pee as it is more concentrated then If still unsure call your clinic to find out what next step should be

Thinking of you

Janet

[Twiglet2]

I’m so sorry lovely if you have a negative by test day and beyond it’s best to stop the meds unless your clinic have told you to stay on them. The hormones won’t be helping your feelings and may be keeping your period at bay. I’m so so sorry it hasn’t worked this time sending you a big hug, be kind to yourself xx

[Seren0119]

I am so sorry, have your clinics done all necessary tests? I saw your bio and wondered given your history if they offered you immune protocol/steriods? X

[Givemesunshine1 in reply to Seren0119]

thanks for replying & checking our story.

I had a hcg blood test yesterday. Less than 1- suggests didn’t even implant. I don’t think our previous 3 implanted either. This embryo was euploid after pgta testing & I had era, pre receptive so had 150 hrs more progesterone. I feel like I’ve failed everyone.

We’re not sure where to go next. My husband wants to try naturally for a while as we haven’t been doing that properly while putting everything into IVF.

I’ve felt for a long while that my body destroys the embryos as a foreign body but there’s no way of knowing & so much money for a guess at nk cells. I don’t think our clinic offer nk cell testing.

We conceived our first baby naturally in 2018 & again in 2019 but nothing since.

[Seren0119 in reply to Givemesunshine1]

You have not failed anyone. A negative test is not a “failure” - you are not a failure. Sub-fertility is a medical condition and your body is your friend - trying so so hard to give you want you want. Please trust me on that.

It might not seem it now, when you are at your lowest; but this WILL happen. All you need is determination.

I would suggest changing clinics - more investigations, yes, expensive but much cheaper than continuous IVF without any answers. I will message you the clinic I used. I would definitely recommend steriods if PGS tested embryos are not implanting, that was the only thing that seemed to work for me (after two PGS tested chemical and miscarriage).

Stay strong xx