BFP from 6dp to 8dpt and now a very faint line on 10dp5dt. No trigger and natural modified FET. Is this game over?

[Mahriya]

I’m absolutely devastated. Waking up this morning hoping to see a darker line and I can’t even see the pink line anymore. It was there 2 days ago and now all i can see is a very faint line that’s hard to see.

This was the only time in my life I saw bfp and it’s just disappeared like that. I don’t think there is any hope left but has anyone experienced this before and not being a chemical?

I used first response test and always tested early morning. The only difference today was that I peed in a cup rather than directly on the stick which I doubt makes any difference.

Today’s test in the pic probably doesn’t show a line but i can see a very faint one that’s hard to capture 😢

Update on 11dp: BFN confirmed on first response. The line is completely gone 💔

[MagicTourmaline]

Have you tried to do another one? Maybe its a faulty test... I know its very stressful but this might doesnt mean anything...Thinking of you and sending you lots of love... ❤

[Mahriya in reply to MagicTourmaline]

Hey hun. Thanks for your message. I repeated the test and it was exactly the same. I had the sample in the cup so it was done with the same urine this morning. Hope you’re feeling ok ❤️ x

[MagicTourmaline in reply to Mahriya]

Maybe try to do one in the afternoon or tomorrow morning... I keep my fingers crossed for you!!!

[Cinderella5]

Awww I'm sorry, it looks like perhaps you've had a chemical where implantation has begun but hasnt continued. Hugs.xx

[Mahriya in reply to Cinderella5]

Thanks hun. I’m wondering if my next bleed counts as my period and if i can do another natural FET immediately . I can’t find anything on this. It’s all so awful but I’m sure you know the feeling. xx

[Cinderella5 in reply to Mahriya]

Im sorry, it will depend on your clinic....they all seem to have differing advice. Hope you're doing ok.xx

[Poop84]

Did you try another test? Or hcg blood test? I remember one of your previous posts so wondered if you had any intralipids this time as you were having nk cell testing?

[Mahriya in reply to Poop84]

Hey. My clinic doesn’t do bloods I’m afraid. I’ll try another test but first response ones are usually very accurate. Not sure if it’s worth trying clearblue digital ones. My nk cells came back all normal so no extra medication xx

[Fruitandflowers]

If your clinic doesn't HCG test, your GP might or there are private walk-ins or online labs, like Medichecks. Luckily my GP was very good about doing these as well as progesterone testing and I found these were the only reliable way to tell what was going on. I also used Medichecks - if you go for the postal option it takes a a day or do for the test to be delivered but the results are emailed. If it hasn't worked this time, I'm sorry as it's very hard to have the BFP taken away. But I was able to go straight into a collection on my next period after early loss and then on a second early loss, a FET - each time I had the withdrawal bleed after coming off the meds then could start scans etc on my next day 1. I didn't have any complications (e.g., ectopic) which can delay things. Also, if you're NHS, they may want you to wait an extra month.

[Mahriya in reply to Fruitandflowers]

Hey hun. Thank you for your message. It definitely looks like a chemical since the faint line is completely gone now. I never tested early in my last 3 cycles so i have no idea if this has happened before. I wish i had tested early so at least I knew if this is a recurring issue. I tried medichecks before but couldn’t get a finger blood and the local nurse they had in my area was so incapable that couldn’t draw my blood. I have tricky vains that needs someone who knows what they’re doing.

I don’t really know if it’s worth doing another FET now. I have one last grade C left when all the A grades didn’t work. xxx

[Fruitandflowers in reply to Mahriya]

Sorry to hear that. Sometimes clinics want you to get a negative on a CBD or less than 5 on HCG, just to be sure and make sure it's not ectopic, but I think normally just you reporting a negative is enough. But if it helps, I was beginning to worry after I had two early losses in a row after BFPs (never had a BFP before I started IVF) that maybe it was never going to happen or there was something fundamental not right, but my clinic was convinced it was just a numbers game. My first FET (third transfer) worked straight away - it may have been because the prior two were fresh transfers, or because I switched type and amount of progesterone, or just numbers. The clinic also wouldn't tell me the embryo grade on that - the first one I had on the NHS and they told me and said it was top quality but actually it made no difference, and probably having that expectation didn't help, so I wouldn't worry too much about grading. My clinic also kept telling me how positive it was to have gotten as far as a BFP and some development as it meant eggs, they were mature, they fertilized and developed, and implanted - and passing each of those stages is not a given at all. Plus they said it ruled out a lot of issues and tests. It was difficult to see it that way at the time though. Maybe just give yourself a bit of time to process and then decide what you want to do; personally the way I dealt with it was to go straight back in as I needed the hope and something to focus on, but that definitely isn't right for everyone. x

[Mahriya in reply to Fruitandflowers]

I’m really glad it eventually worked for you. I’ll probably just need to use my last embryo and then plan my next move which is very likely to be going abroad where my family lives and it has very advanced fertility centres. I spoke with a doctor over there and she said after 2 failures they tend to do complete investigation to rule out any other issues unlike here. The tricky bit is sorting the time off with work. I’d just go back to transfer the last emby this month if i could but I believe they expect me to wait for my next bleed. It was a natural FET so I didn’t have any down regulation and only took cyclogest for extra support. It all is becoming like a horror story to be honest after 4 rounds. I never thought I’ll be in this situation when I started my first round and here we are. I wish you all the best with the rest of your journey and thanks for your comments xx

[Fruitandflowers in reply to Mahriya]

I'm very sorry - 4 rounds is a lot. I did two (three if you count the first one which they cancelled just before the first lockdown) and it's wearing. I really hope you can get the full investigations as I really didn't like the 'it's just numbers and keep going' approach from my clinic, but having said that I think my issue was progesterone and/or my body not being ready on fresh transfers, so maybe it wasn't too complicated for me in the end. I hope you can also find a way for you to get your happiness. Wishing you best of luck ☘️

[Mahriya in reply to Fruitandflowers]

Thank you. I wish you all the best too ❤️ x

[MakingbabyN]

Hi Mahriya, sorry to read this. When I did natural FETs my clinic permitted them to be back to back xxx