Feeling ‘flat’ going into second round…

[Mlove12]

Due to start stims next weekend and I’m just feeling ‘meh’. Ive had a lot going on in my life at the moment so I’m sure this contributes to it. But i cant help but feel this round isn’t going to work, I clearly have an implantation issue and only thing which has changed this cycle was me getting a endometrial scratch. I have auto immune issues but clinic wouldn’t test for this whilst im on NHS funding.

Anyone else felt ‘meh’ about their cycles? I dont want to seem u grateful but I just don’t think it will work without other testing.

Hope your all ok x

[Kitkat10]

yes, I can relate totally. I felt very despondent about my third cycle and had already given up hope of it working before I’d even started it. It was my successful cycle though even though it was my lowest egg yield. In fact only one egg fertilised normally and I thought ‘oh well that’s it then’ and then that little egg was the one. So keep going, keep positive, it’s the hardest thing I’ve ever gone through but it really can work. Keeping everything crossed for you 🍀

[Mlove12 in reply to Kitkat10]

Thanks for your response and congratulations on your successful cycle! It’s always so lovely to hear success stories especially during the trickiest of times. I’m trying to keep hope 💕

[Savvy_teapot]

I can understand how you are feeling. I was reading your previous posts. Infertility is horrible and affects everything. And that feeling of thinking you aren't fun to be around I have felt that. It is a very difficult time so be kind to yourself. I would try and think of the 1st time as a practice there is so much to still learn about what works. We had male factor and nothing found on my side although each time not many eggs made it from the amount collected and none to freeze. On my 3rd round I have had my 1st positive ever! It is ok to feel diasappointed and sad but hopefully you will have a tiny sliver of hope for even that one egg. It might have not been an implatation problem so worth giving another go!

[Mlove12 in reply to Savvy_teapot]

Thanks for replying with a lovely and hopeful response! Definitely helps to hear others experiences and successes. Congratulations on your successful cycle.

Absolutely a lot to learn and I’m still very new in the game ha. Keeping fingers crossed 🤞🏼

[Savvy_teapot in reply to Mlove12]

I will have my fingers crossed for you. It is hard to keep the hope alive and ok to feel sad. Try not to compare what you are going through. It is different for everyone 💜

[Eloquentia]

I am really sorry to hear this. In a similar position with NHS funding and auto-immune issues. Have PMed you.