Another chemical

[JudithSS]

Much to my surprise over the weekend (I tested on day 10) we had a positive, I was shaking and over the moon. I was expecting negative test from my on and off bleed that I was having, that’s why I tested as I was getting so annoyed with it. Anyway the happiness was short lived, the line was faint but I didn’t even think chemical- silly me, I thought “it’s not my first wee so it will be darker tomorrow” boy was I wrong, a line appeared but it’s light. Today I have a heavier bleed so I know it’s over. OTD is Wednesday. I feel weird, a bit numb, distant, distracted, I cried a touch but not too much, I’m just trying to process it. I think I will go again, but once more and that may be it. I looked at DE, I thought they were a sure thing to get your pregnant but apparently not? When does this end? How do you know when you’re done? I think perhaps we should be childless as we do have a wonderful life, but who knows what will happen next. I’ll start my C0Q10 again and go from there! Lots of love darlings x

[Savvy_teapot]

Sending hugs ☹ Hope you can have sometime to yourself. It is ok to feel what you feel...

[JudithSS in reply to Savvy_teapot]

Thank you darling x

[Hoping20]

I am so sorry you are going through this. Give yourself time to process what has happened and to grieve. You will eventually figure out what your next steps should be but for now, focus on you. I really hope you have support around you right now. Try to take extra care x

[JudithSS in reply to Hoping20]

Thank you darling! I wish we could just figure it out now and know where to go from here x

[Lamagarden]

I’m so sorry. It’s such a difficult journey xx

[JA-fnuk Partner Nurse Fertility Network UK]

Sending a big hug and lots of good luck wishes for your future treatment Take care

Janet

[Jules0277]

So sorry, it’s all so disappointing and exhausting. We have been through approx 6 own cycles and 2 donor transfers. First donor (2 embryos transferred) ended up in a blighted ovum and an awful miscarriage, most recently 1 embryo transferred and a chemical. We have our review with the consultant in a weeks time to see what they recommend next.

Take some time to process and then see what your clinic recommends next. The donor cycle for us have been the closest we have got so far. We’re hoping it’s a numbers game so will try again in a few months.

Look after yourself.