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Hey my lovely ladies hope you are all well!

Unfortunately I had some bad news. After all my lovely positive tests my levels on Monday were 114 and today they've dropped to 47... So that's this round for me. Now time to have some wine and cry my eyes out! 😍

I'm thinking of leaving my job and having 6 months off the ivf madness!

Sending millions hugs and positive vibes to you all 😍😍😍😍 I won't give up and my time will come at some point 😍

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I’m so sorry. I was really hoping it would work out for you as you have such a lovely attitude and have made me smile. Look after yourself, do whatever you need to do to process it and feel better x

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Thank you hun! I had a feeling that's why I requested the bloods to be done. Unfortunately nothing to do. I need some time for myself! Sending lots of hugs ❤❤❤

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I’m so sorry hun :( such sad news. Look after yourself, lots of rest xxx

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Thank you so much hun! All the best for you and wish with all my heart you get your miracle!!! 😍❤❤❤❤❤❤🤞🤞🤞🤞

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I’m so so sorry you are going through this again. I’ve said it before and I will say it again this journey is so damn cruel. Sending you love and best wishes xx

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Absolutely cruel! I hate it but will try again at some point 🙈😍

I really hope you got your BFP!!!!! ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞

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Thank you for remembering, we did xxxx please take care xx

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That's great! Wishing you healthy and happy 9 months!!! ❤❤❤❤🤗🤗🤗🤗

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I am so so sorry hun💔 I was thinking about you earlier. Look after yourself xxx

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Will do that. Will take some time off for me and hubby we both need and deserve that! 😍😍😍

You take very good care of yourself and I wish with all my heart I see some good news soon! 🤗🤗🤗🤗😍🤞🤞🤞🤞❤❤❤

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I am absolutely gutted for you lovely 😢 sending the biggest hug and lots of love. This journey can be so cruel....I don't know what to say. Make sure you're looking after yourself x x x x

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No no no! You don't get upset, not allowed right now! 😍😍😍😍😍 I will be fine I promise 🤗🤗🤗🤗

You take very good care of yourself and I hope soon you give us some very good news! 😍😍😍😍😍

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I’m so sorry 💕 Don’t give up as it looks like you can get pregnant so it will happen. Hopefully next time. Sending hugs xx

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hey huni, so sorry to hear this.. let me squeeze you with a warm warm hug <3

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That's a lovely and very much needed hug thank you so much 😍😍😍❤❤❤❤❤❤xx

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Oh I am so sorry to hear this! ❤️❤️ I was really hoping it would turn out well for you. Make sure you take enough time to build yourself back up, and look after yourself. You have always been so kind and caring on here, you really deserve all the happiness! Stay positive- it will happen one day. This is a long and cruel journey! All the best to you!! 💝 xx

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Thank you ever so much for your so sweet and kind words. I will take some time to take care of myself and husband and just enjoy each other a bit cause ivf took everything away from us!

Hope is all well with you and you feeling great! Sending millions hugs! 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗❤❤❤❤❤

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Thank you 🥰. Big hugs to you too!! When you’re ready, try and enjoy doing some nice things together and enjoy the wine while you can! 🍷 🙂 xxx

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I had quite a few glasses and few margaritas 🙈🙈🙈🍸🍸🍸😬😬😬😬🤗🤗

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I’m so sorry for you both. Do whatever you have to do!! Sending you lots and lots of hugs! Xxxxx

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Thank you so much hun! It will will oass and things will get better!

Best of luck with your journey and I really hope it works first time for you ❤

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I’m definitely coming to terms with how difficult this journey is. I’m sure your time will come, take this time and do whatever you can to put yourself back together. We don’t call ourselves fertility warriors for nothing 💪🏻 Xx

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So sorry to hear this, can’t imagine how you must feel xx

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I feel absolutely angry, very very angry but will be alright! It's time to think little bit about myself and hubby and get couple of months rest 😍😍😍😍❤❤❤❤

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Ugh so sorry to hear this, thinking of you xx

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So sorry. Hugs to you and I hope you get your baby soon xx

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Thank you so much hun ❤❤❤

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So sorry to read this hun. Is crap and unfair. U do what right for u. This is always so tough with the ups and downs a.

Good for u got having ur plans. Take good care of u. Hopefully we will all get there. Big big hugs xxx

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We will definitely get there just the wait and the things we get on the way might put us down a bit. God I was so hopefully this time seriosly...

Sending millions hugs hun xx

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So so sorry to hear this. Just such sad news. Sending you loads of hugs. I definitely think it may be a good idea to have some time off if you think you need it. IVF takes such a toll on the body both physically and mentally. Take good care of yourself xx

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Definitely! I'm planning on changing my job and having 3-5 months off. The only problem is im nhs funded and I have 2 frozen transfers and I think all needs to be dine within a year of my referral. Let's see ❤❤

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I am so sorry to hear. It’s so tough. 😞 you’ve got a great attitude so good on you!! 👍🏻But like you say relax now and enjoy the break. Book a holiday maybe?

I picked up my fertility socks today just before I went for my egg collection and the nurses loved them! Thank you.

Take good care if yourself and each other xxxx

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Definitely! Im going back gome on 29th of July for 2 weeks and I'm planning a week on the seaside and will just enjoy myself and the sunshine! In the meantime im changing my job and now is time to think of myself and hubby a bit!

Hope EC went fine and wishing you success and happiness! Sending lots if hugs and positive vibes your way xxx

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That’s so shitty, I’m sorry it’s happening again for you. Look after yourselves and if that means taking a break or changing jobs then by all means you do it. Big hugs xxx

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Will do all that. Applied for a new job and I'm giving my notice tomorrow. I hated my job anyway 🙈🙈🙈🙈

Hope is all well with you! Xx

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Oh no dear, im so sorry to hear that, take care of yourself dear.xx

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Oh no, I am so sorry :( I know how you feel... I am also giving myself a little break after almost 3 years of madness! I have had enough of constant appointments, meds and constantly thinking what am I doing next etc and yet nothing to show for it... we need to live a little xx

Take a time off for yourself and get back when you feel ready xx

All the best x make sure to do something nice for yourself xx

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Its definitely time to rest a bit. Since the beginning of this year i haven't been myself!

Thanks hun ❤❤❤❤❤

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Hi Klndmr,

I am so sorry ....💔

I have been following how you have got on this week.This journey is so dam cruel.I have just left my job too due to this journey.Big hug's and have some you and hubby time.💘

Louise

Xxxx😘

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I've been hating my job for a while cause people expect everything from me and nothing in return. Like constant demands for everything and I can't deal with it anymore! I'm giving my notice tomorrow and is time for some "me" time!

Hope is all well with you. Sending lost of hugs hun xx

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Awww I'm so sorry, that was my fear!😪 Sending huge hugs lovely! Enjoy that wine, you bloody deserve it!!xxxx

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I did enjoy quite a few margaritas the other night and feel much better now. I knew it anyway cause I had positive digital 6 days before the bloods. Digital picks up hcg of 50 and 6 days later it was 114 and when I did the maths I knew in my mind wasn't going to end well. Now is time for some "me" time!

Hope you are well hun! Sending millions hugs xxx

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I did wonder after you having such an early bfp and getting those levels....I was just really hoping for you guys! It's so shit!!😕 Anyhoo, yes definitely time for you! I hope you guys have something nice to try to look forward to! You're an amazing wee lassie!♥️ massive hugs to you too!!😘xx

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We are planning a holiday 😍😍😍😍 Somewhere nice and hot with a sandy beach with nice cocktails ❤❤❤😍😍😍🍸🍸🍸

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Now that sounds like a fabulous idea!!🤗💖xx

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And woke up this morning with the thought of booking my follow up 🙈 I'm an absolute mad woman hahaha xx

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Might be helpful to get it out of the way whether you decide to take some time out or not! I always felt like it closed the chapter for me so definitely not a mad woman! Ha ha haxx

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I've booked my follow up for 11th of June. I am a mad person seriosly. I had a very good cry, got drunk and took all my anger out and now I don't even want a break longer than a month 🙈🙈🙈🙈 When God was giving patience to the people he forgot to give me some 🙈🙈🙈🙈❤xx

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Ha ha ha Im exactly the same, patience is not one of my strong points. I feel like Ive been on hold for ages when the reality is its only been 3 months!! Keep up that fighting spirit!!xx

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You too! Hope is all going well with you hun 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍

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Hoping to start our FET soon.....just waiting on AF....always flipping waiting on something arent we! Lol.xx

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Hahhaa yesssss the wait never finish! Yoi have all my fingers crossed for the best outcome this time! I will be thinking of you 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗😍😍😍😍❤❤❤ Sending lots of positive vibes and baby dust 🤞🤞🤞🤞🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈❤❤❤

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I'm so sorry to hear that. Hope you take some time to yourself to recover. Sending a big hug. Enjoy your wine and plenty of it! X

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I did have loads hahahaha and few margaritas and then cried like a baby.

I'm ready to think about myself now and will do that for few months! Xx

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So sorry to hear this. Take time to heal and look after yourself. Best wishes xx

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Thank you hun xx

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So sorry to hear this. I don’t blame you for wanting time off as it’s hard. We try to have at least a 3 month break between cycles so take the 6 months and relax x

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3 months minimum! I need that and my relationship needs that as well! ❤❤❤

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Omg I’m so sorry ! I really thought you were going to have good news ! Your such a positive person who has been amazing through this process you have helped me so much ! Make sure you look after yourself, you deserve good news and loads of happiness xXx

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I thought the same you know. I was like omg this time is happening and will be all great. But what a luck again ❤❤❤

Nothing to do! Need to carry on.

Sending lots of hugs ❤❤❤

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I'm so sorry to see this, life can be really sh*ttily unfair sometimes. I think some time off is exactly what you need, rest and reset and come back stronger in a little while. Big hugs xxx

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Exactly! I haven't had any time this year for myself or for hubby. I was so focused on the ivf and my job i forgot to live.

Sending millions hugs your way! ❤❤❤🍸

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Sorry honey! Sending u huge hug! Take care of yourself! Crossed fingers for your next round! xxxxx

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Thank you ever so much! Sending lots of hugs your way ❤❤❤❤

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Truly devastated for you. I’m so sorry you are going through this again once is bad enough 😢

I was offered miscarriage tests if I was to suffer another loss ( had 1 CP) maybe your clinic could refer you for tests at the miscarriage clinic?

Take as much time as you need before making any decisions. If you need time off work the GP will be happy to sign you off. You matter more right now.

I hope you have plenty of support around you during this difficult time.

Thinking of you xxx

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I was thinking the same cause there must be a reason for all my 3 pregnancies ending in the first stage. First will try to rest and recover and then will get it all checked out.

Sending lots of hugs your way! ❤❤❤

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Aww im so sorry 😔 xxx

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😔Biggest hugs to you hun xx ❤❤ here if you need me at all x take it easy and look after yourself x x ❤

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Thank you ever so much! Sending lots of hugs your way too! ❤❤❤❤

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Oh sweetheart I’m so so sorry to hear this news 😢 I hope your ok and your friend and partner are giving you lots of support. Your an amazingly positive lady - and I hope you get the little miracle you so deserve one day ❤️❤️❤️ Sending you lots of love and strength 😘 xxx

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Thank you ever so much hun! Hubby doesn't really show any emotions he is juts just like "please take care of yourself and give it some rest and just be your old self".

I think he suffers more not for the ivf but for the damage I'm doing to myself. But now is time for some "me" time and a holiday!

Hope is all going well for you! ❤❤❤❤❤😍😍😍😍😍

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My husband doesn't show emotional either - so I know it can be difficult. I can see his concern though, the journey can start taking its toll on you overtime.

You are a strong lady though and you will overcome it. I think your idea of having some time off for awhile is exactly whats needed.

Make sure you have lots of fun, enough for all of us ladies🍸🍸

Thank you lovely, all is going well so far. I have my test date this week so just trying to hang in there x

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Everything is going to be great! Sending millions hugs and positive vibes your way xxx 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗❤❤❤❤

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Im so sorry xx sending hugs

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Hey hun, I am so sorry to hear that it didn't work for you this time. I've been following your story and your positive mental attitude is so inspiring.

Take time to heal and all the best for your next round. Sending lots of love and hugs xxxx💖💖💖

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Awww that's so nice of you love. I decided im taking some time off, changing my job, will have a holiday and lose some weight (after 2 rounds I'm like a little fatty 🙈).

When i recover emotionally will be on it again! Sending lots of hugs your way ❤❤❤❤😍😍😍😍

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Oh hun I am so sorry. I have been following your posts and I was so excited for you. It is so unfair. Keep strong and thinking of you xx

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Way too unfair. But unfortunately there is nothing I can do but carry on. My time wil cone as well like everyone else! Im really angry still hahaha way too angry but will get there!

Lots of hugs xx

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Let’s hope we all get there. We can do this hun. Let’s be strong and do this xxxx

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We definitely will! ❤❤❤

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I'm so sorry to hear your sad news, sending you both massive hugs and love during this difficult time xxxx

Take the time you need to heal, I've took some time off and delayed my next cycle and it does do you some good xxxx

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I'm planning on doing exactly the same thing. I'm completely drained seriosly. I don't know how some women do 7-8 rounds i really envy them for their strength and positivity. I mean im still positive and hopeful but so so so tired.

Everything will be amazing sooner or later i believe in that! Sending lots of hugs hun xx

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I know it's so tiring all the little hurdles you have to go through and then get through, then you get so happy and then it's gone. Really does take its toll xxx

But it does make us stronger and when we finally do get there and we will, all the anger and pain we feel right now it will all be gone, not forgotten but gone xx

IVF warriors xxx

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I’m so sorry to read your sad news, why is life so cruel. Your time will definitely come and well done for being so brave, you deserve a bottle of wine 💗 xxx

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I had the bottle and few margaritas hahahha did a good job xxx

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I am so so sorry xx absolutely gutted for you both. Sending lots of virtual hugs to you lovely xxx

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Thank you ever so much hun! Sending lots of hugs your way too xx

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I’m so sorry to hear this. Sending you big hugs 🤗 Look after yourself and take care. Your time will definitely come. xxx

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Thank you! I'm taking time off and will do some nice stuff to feel myself again! ❤❤❤❤❤

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So sorry to read this xx

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I’m sorry to hear that. It’s so inspiring to see how positive you are through all of this. It’s going to happen for you ❤️

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Thanks hun. Will get there sooner or later and everything will be amazing! ❤❤❤

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I'm sorry, sending you lots of hugs. Please take all the time you need to be good to yourself xx

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Thanks hun. I'm taking some time off (i hope) 🤗 Sending lots of hugs your way xxx

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Sending you big hugs. Take time with family 💕💕

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Will do that hun. Thank you xxx

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So so sorry..I knw the feeling.. keep smiling.. God has something better planned for u..

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That's what im hoping for! Sending lots of hugs xx

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So sorry to hear this. Sending you lots of hugs x

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O, Klndmr this breaks my heart. I was rooting so hard for you. I dont know what to say.... Take your time to grieve... I hope you pull through this fast and can move on. I am thinking of you....

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Hey thanks hun. I had a very good cry, couple bottles of wine, few margaritas hahaha it did help tbh haha ❤❤❤❤ Sending lots of hugs xx

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Just wanted to say I am so so sorry. Been following you’re story and I was so thrilled when you had the good news. Totally agree you need some time for yourself and to relax. I’ve started reflexology - not for everyone but has been amazing for me. Look after yourself xxx

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I just need right now a nice long holiday, a sandy beach and lots of cocktails 🙈🙈🙈🍸🍸🍸❤❤❤

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Oh hun I'm so sorry to hear this. This is certainly a tough journey that we are on.

You take care of yourself and wishing you all the best 💜💜

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Very very tough. But we will survive and will be all great! ❤❤❤

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I'm so sorry to read this! Was really hoping this was your time and all seemed so promising. Hope you can take time for yourself and you and your OH can be there for each other at this terrible time. Hug, love and be together. Sending you hugs xx

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Tell me about it. I was so so hopeful and when saw the lines and the digital i was like yayyyy Its my turn. Unfortunately not yet. But one day will be and will be great!

Sending lots of hugs your way hun xx

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Hey my lovely, I was so happy to see the positives for you. I'm so sorry its ended up this way. I'm finding it so hard to get my head around mine. Next time we will super smash it xxxxx

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I know it's so terrible isn't it! Absolutely unfair! I have 2 colleague's they getting pregnant from one nite stands and each of them had 2 abortions and look at us.. Crying, hoping, fighting....

But as you said next time will be us and will be absolutely amazing!!!!! ❤❤❤❤

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Oh no truly heartbroken for you☹ do what you need to do to look after yourself sending you a million hugs too😘😘 and like you say your time will come😊 enjoy some time with hubby 😍 lots of love xxxx

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I need a holiday and a new job! After that I will be great! Sending lots of hugs your way hun! ❤❤❤

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Oh no Klndmr, it was all going so well. I am so so sorry to read this. Hopefully you will take time to heal and find out reasons for this to enable to get full term next time. Big massive hugs to you xx

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Thanks hun. That's my plan. Seems like i can't pass the first few weeks cause it's the 3rd time happening. I will take some time off and then get everything checked out

Sending millions hugs your way ❤❤❤

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You too. You truly are a super warrior xx

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And you are an amazing woman and I appreciate all your support always when i need to hear something good and encouraging 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗❤❤❤❤❤❤

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I am so so sorry, this is just devastating. Sending you lots of hugs xxx

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Oh I'm so sorry to hear this 😔 i know your pain, but im sure there are good things to come for you 🙂 I've taken most of the last year off and I have my regretted it. The peace of mind has been worth it xx

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That's good! I'm planning on changing my job and going on a nice holiday. And maybe try again in few months time. Luckily i have 2 frozen embies so hopefully one of them will be my baby! ❤❤❤❤

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Absolutely I'm sure the best is yet to come 🙂 in the meantime enjoy every moment of what you can xxx

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Will do my best! Same to you hun xx

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Im so sorry I've just seen this. Literally no words to say, how unfair life is.

Since our MC we've had an enforced 4 months off TTC and its taken me that long to just get my head around life again and to stop cursing/hating anyone with a child under 3 or a bump. its really helped our relationship too.. not that it was bad but its just been nice being 'normal'.

None of this helps with your sadness, and I am sending you 10000s of hugs xx

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I'm still so angry. For 3rd time i can't go further than 8 weeks. There must be a reason for that. But now i need tome time off and when I'm ready will get it all checked 🤗🤗🤗🤗❤❤❤

Hope you are well hun. Sending millions hugs and positive vibes your way ❤❤❤

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Am so sorry to see this. You seem so warm and positive. Your previous posts recently have really made me smile. I hope you’re looking after yourself well and taking it easy. Sending you the biggest hug xx

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Aww that's so nice. Im glad i helped you smile hun. I'm getting there and will be better soon.

Sending millions hugs and positive vibes your way xx

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So sorry to hear that hun, look after yourself and do whatever you need to to make you feel better xxx

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Will definitely do that hun. Thank you xx

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Sorry to hear your news 😢. I have recently started IVF and have seen your recent posts. Your positive attitude is inspirational and you’re so kind in your support of others on this forum. I will be cheering you on in your onward journey. Enjoy a lovely holiday xxx

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Oyy thank you for your nice words! I really hope with all my heart it wokrs first time for you! 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤞🤞🤞🤞😍😍

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*Hugs* Im also experiencing the same news as u... feeling helpless now.. stay strong, we can do this! 💪🏼

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Oyy I'm so sorry love. But we can do that and we will stay strong! Sending millions hugs and positive vibes your way 🤗🤗🤗❤❤❤❤

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I’m so sorry to read this 😓sending you hugs back 💞💞💞xxxxx

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Thanks hun ❤❤❤

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