*Sensitive post* Hello ladies its been awhile :)

[Niki_B]

Hi ladies

It's been awhile since I been back here...I really hope this post doesn't upset anyone. But I just wanted to say hello and thank everyone again for all the support I got over the years and maybe spread some hope. I seriously don't know how I would have got through it all without you ladies ❤ those who know me, know my ivf journey.. 2 full cycles.. 3 embryo transfers...1 devastating miscarriage a few days before my 12 week scan 😢 and those who knew me, knew I gave up. Not only had I had enough, but there was no more money for ivf. But I had give up... I knew my dreams of becoming a mum were over and I admitted defeat. Had split up with my partner..months later met my now fiance.. 2 weeks before my 40th bday and just as covid hit the world and we were in level 4 lockdown..(I had felt sick one night and thought hmmm..actually where is my period I'm sure it's been while 🤔 after tracking periods for so long was so nice never knowing when it was due lol) I had ovulation strips in the house and for shits and giggles peed on it..it was positive? Race down to chemist (had to call first level 4 lockdown in New Zealand they had to meet me at the door) well anyways as you can see I was pregnant!!! Naturally!! Was terrified my whole pregnancy many trips to midwife and hospital just to hear his heartbeat even though my pregnancy was completely fine but anxiety levels were through the roof the whole way. But he arrived safely and healthy and perfect! My miracle I call him 🥰 ladies it can happen!! I used to get so annoyed when people kept saying...don't give up don't give up... but I had. I had to in my head and heart that was it.. cause it just hurt too much. But he's here and he's perfect and still at over 13 months old I look at him and can't believe he's mine 😭 gosh here come the tears. IT WILL HAPPEN LADIES DONT GIVE UP!! Miracles really do happen he's right there in that photo ❤

I really hope I haven't upset anyone. I again wanted to thank you ladies and Fertility Network UK this page seriously got me through all the ivf stress and misery. Cause let's face it, that's what it is. And just hang on ladies...those dark days when we're alone crying in bed or the shower,just feeling utterly defated and exhausted...just hang on (here comes the tears again) I just want to give you all gentle hugs and just say...hang on, and don't give up ❤❤❤

[KiboXX]

Lovely to see you back and he’s absolutely scrummy 🥰 I think stories of hope are so important so thank you for sharing yours xxx

[Millbanks]

Massive congratulations! So incredible to hear and so pleased for you.

Lots of love xx

[Hidden]

Brilliant news Niki and great to share x

[Cinderella5]

Hey Niki! Lovely to see your update, hes adorable. I'm sure others will appreciate seeing a story with hope. A few of us oldies shared a few messages a while back with updates....thought you might like to see...xxhealthunlocked.com/baby-and...

[ttcemmie]

Awww amazing. What a miracle! x

[AuroraXen]

This is lovely Niki, how wonderful for you! Congratulations xx

[MWC30]

SO happy for you, congratulations!! I’m just at the start of my journey and finding this forum has been a godsend really, everyone is so supportive. And stories like these give me hope!

I’m trying to keep in mind that the lucky embryo (however conceived) could always be just around the corner 🥰

[DianeArnold Partner Nurse Fertility Network UK]

Hi Niki. He looks fab! Enjoy your new family life. Diane