So after five rounds of ICSI and the sad loss of two babies I finally get to write my own sensitive post.
A year ago today I found out at my 12 week scan that we had lost our baby. Devastated doesn’t even come close to describing how we felt. I thought that was it for us and my chance of being a mummy was gone. I wasn’t even sure I had it in me to carry on with trying anymore. I couldn’t bare the thought of having to go through the same again.
Yesterday a year on I went back to the same clinic to have my 20 week scan - it was perfect and our baby was waving and moving and looking just amazing.
I’m anxious everyday and I think it’s true you don’t fully relax and it’s hard to enjoy what’s happening. I just want January to be here now, but I am so very grateful to have this chance and I honestly never felt I would be one of the lucky ones.
So to anyone still reading please don’t give up hope, some peoples journeys take a bit longer than others. Thank you to everyone who has helped and supported me on her - through some very dark times it really has helped.