****sensitive post**

[Emma04]

So after five rounds of ICSI and the sad loss of two babies I finally get to write my own sensitive post.

A year ago today I found out at my 12 week scan that we had lost our baby. Devastated doesn’t even come close to describing how we felt. I thought that was it for us and my chance of being a mummy was gone. I wasn’t even sure I had it in me to carry on with trying anymore. I couldn’t bare the thought of having to go through the same again.

Yesterday a year on I went back to the same clinic to have my 20 week scan - it was perfect and our baby was waving and moving and looking just amazing.

I’m anxious everyday and I think it’s true you don’t fully relax and it’s hard to enjoy what’s happening. I just want January to be here now, but I am so very grateful to have this chance and I honestly never felt I would be one of the lucky ones.

So to anyone still reading please don’t give up hope, some peoples journeys take a bit longer than others. Thank you to everyone who has helped and supported me on her - through some very dark times it really has helped.

[Strawberrychaos]

Aww hun, thanks for the update. I’m so glad that all is ok and that you have reached this amazing milestone. I wish you the very best for the rest of your pregnancy and look forward to your birth announcement in January. Take care hun xx

[Dreamingofbaby]

Ahh awesome to hear congratulations cx

[Emmaxxx]

Congratulations Emma!!! I am so pleased for you xxxx

[Millbanks]

That’s so lovely. So sorry about your previous loss. I imagine it never gets easier but hoping this pregnancy is everything you hoped for xx

[CLou21]

Congratulations to you 💗✨ try and enjoy this lovely time xx

[MissSaoPaulo]

What a bittersweet moment

I hope you can enjoy the rest of your pregnancy now you've come so far xxx

[Cinderella5]

So pleased that all is progressing well for you and baby! Great news.xx

[Emma04 in reply to Cinderella5]

Thank you so much - I hope you are doing ok? xxx

[Cinderella5 in reply to Emma04]

Im alright thanks! Nothing much doing with me, just waiting to start another FET in October/November.xx

[Hidden]

Thank you for sharing your big news with us. I’m glad that you've reached this amazing milestone

I'm having the same feelings you have - a little anxious and I don’t fully relax to enjoy my pregnancy (I'm 16 weeks). But I guess it's normal when we have waited so long and had so many losses along the way.

I wish you the very best for the rest of your pregnancy!

xx

[Emma04 in reply to Hidden]

Wishing you the very best too xxx

[WaywardGirl]

Amazing news!

I’m hoping to follow in your footsteps - a year ago today I had my viability scan and saw a heartbeat, but some time between then and 10 weeks, I had a miscarriage. I am currently 5+3 and impatient for my first scan next Friday!

[Emma04 in reply to WaywardGirl]

Fingers firmly crossed for you xxx

[Katbaby19]

Congratulations, what a lovely story xxx

[Hidden]

I’m so very sorry for your loss very sad I’m so happy to hear all is going well with this pregnancy ❤️ I never managed to fully relax until my daughter arrived safely we fell with her after a early miscarriage the year before I still find it hard to believe we got so lucky. Anyway all the best with your pregnancy xxx

[Kyell2]

Lovely news Emma that you got to see your wee one doing so well xx

[Rowly88]

Congratulations, so happy for you xxx

[Angels2us]

That's lovely to here it really is so pleased for you, that's made me smile it really has .

I had a positive for week and half , then slowly faded to negative.

I had left it so 12 years, well that was my last attempt 12 years ago , it was number 4

Then this year we thought we have another go . I am 45 now using donor embryos, so excited to I got pregnant but so short lived and I think I forgot how cruel and empty it makes you feel, and useless.

I still have two embryos left and my review in a weeks time,

But really want to go again but emotionally don't know if I can , and there is the expense.

But my time is running out and I know I have to make a decision soon

Sorry about the long post .

Really happy it's worked for you 😘😘😘😘

[ChristineB05]

Congratulations hun and sorry for your previous losses. Thank you for sharing your story and providing us with hope.

All the best 😘😘