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So after five rounds of ICSI and the sad loss of two babies I finally get to write my own sensitive post.

A year ago today I found out at my 12 week scan that we had lost our baby. Devastated doesn’t even come close to describing how we felt. I thought that was it for us and my chance of being a mummy was gone. I wasn’t even sure I had it in me to carry on with trying anymore. I couldn’t bare the thought of having to go through the same again.

Yesterday a year on I went back to the same clinic to have my 20 week scan - it was perfect and our baby was waving and moving and looking just amazing.

I’m anxious everyday and I think it’s true you don’t fully relax and it’s hard to enjoy what’s happening. I just want January to be here now, but I am so very grateful to have this chance and I honestly never felt I would be one of the lucky ones.

So to anyone still reading please don’t give up hope, some peoples journeys take a bit longer than others. Thank you to everyone who has helped and supported me on her - through some very dark times it really has helped.

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Aww hun, thanks for the update. I’m so glad that all is ok and that you have reached this amazing milestone. I wish you the very best for the rest of your pregnancy and look forward to your birth announcement in January. Take care hun xx

Ahh awesome to hear congratulations cx

Congratulations Emma!!! I am so pleased for you xxxx

That’s so lovely. So sorry about your previous loss. I imagine it never gets easier but hoping this pregnancy is everything you hoped for xx

Congratulations to you 💗✨ try and enjoy this lovely time xx

What a bittersweet moment

I hope you can enjoy the rest of your pregnancy now you've come so far xxx

So pleased that all is progressing well for you and baby! Great news.xx

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Emma04 in reply to Cinderella5

Thank you so much - I hope you are doing ok? xxx

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Cinderella5 in reply to Emma04

Im alright thanks! Nothing much doing with me, just waiting to start another FET in October/November.xx

Thank you for sharing your big news with us. I’m glad that you've reached this amazing milestone :)

I'm having the same feelings you have - a little anxious and I don’t fully relax to enjoy my pregnancy (I'm 16 weeks). But I guess it's normal when we have waited so long and had so many losses along the way.

I wish you the very best for the rest of your pregnancy!


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Emma04 in reply to lucyyyyy

Wishing you the very best too xxx

Amazing news!

I’m hoping to follow in your footsteps - a year ago today I had my viability scan and saw a heartbeat, but some time between then and 10 weeks, I had a miscarriage. I am currently 5+3 and impatient for my first scan next Friday!

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Emma04 in reply to WaywardGirl

Fingers firmly crossed for you xxx

Congratulations, what a lovely story xxx

I’m so very sorry for your loss very sad I’m so happy to hear all is going well with this pregnancy ❤️ I never managed to fully relax until my daughter arrived safely we fell with her after a early miscarriage the year before I still find it hard to believe we got so lucky. Anyway all the best with your pregnancy xxx

Lovely news Emma that you got to see your wee one doing so well xx

Congratulations, so happy for you xxx

That's lovely to here it really is so pleased for you, that's made me smile it really has .

I had a positive for week and half , then slowly faded to negative.

I had left it so 12 years, well that was my last attempt 12 years ago , it was number 4

Then this year we thought we have another go . I am 45 now using donor embryos, so excited to I got pregnant but so short lived and I think I forgot how cruel and empty it makes you feel, and useless.

I still have two embryos left and my review in a weeks time,

But really want to go again but emotionally don't know if I can , and there is the expense.

But my time is running out and I know I have to make a decision soon

Sorry about the long post .

Really happy it's worked for you 😘😘😘😘

Congratulations hun and sorry for your previous losses. Thank you for sharing your story and providing us with hope.

All the best 😘😘

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