OTD fears

[Bozo_the_pumpkin]

OTD tomorrow.. 🙈 . I was told that if I don’t do a blood test, I will need to wait an extra 2 days before using a home pregnancy test…. I am so scared after stupidly testing on 3dp5dt and getting a negative….so I think I will wait till Sunday to test. what if I just stay indoors and just never test.. then I will never need to see a negative outcome🙆🏽‍♀️

Being silly I know.. but….

[Fudge1980]

Loads of luck Bozo 🙏🏼🤞🏼🙏🏼🤞🏼🙏🏼🤞🏼💕

[Savvy_teapot]

🤞🤞🤞

[Millbanks]

I couldn't bear to test at home last time. I was so terrified that it just sent me spiraling so I went for a blood test instead - rather have them call and tell me, rather than have to wait for the lines to show.

I was 100% convinced it hadn't worked so was floored when they told me it had.

Everything crossed for you xxx

[Bozo_the_pumpkin]

Oh… what a lovely surprise that must’ve been for you.. congratulations.. I am so happy for you. 💃🏼💃🏼😃

Right now I wish and hope I can one day be one of those who can say that they had a surprise BFP… this time around… I just can’t even think! Very strange-I’ve never before been so panicked about OTD. I have been sad.. and devastated, upset about past BFNs … this time I just seem to be on the edge of constant panic attacks.. like you say- spiralling.

Thank you for your message .. it reinforces that I am not alone and also not crazy he he he

[Millbanks in reply to Bozo_the_pumpkin]

You are not crazy and definitely not alone!! I completely relate to your feelings, and I think it's also very normal to feel so upset about past BFNs - you just start thinking "why would it work this time, when it never has before".... but it can! I genuinely have PTDS from so many negative tests - I even got scared doing a covid test the other day because they look so similar.

Try and remember that nothing you do / have done will impact the outcome - I know the waiting is hard but try and take the rest of it 1 day at a time. Do some nice things, eat some nice food, plan some things for the future..

Thinking of you xx

[Bozo_the_pumpkin in reply to Millbanks]

Milibanks.. thank you so much. The great people on this great sight really really help when you start feeling yourself become w but unhinged! The Covid test.. oh my word.. yes I can see how that reaction could happen. Thanks for you very kind and supportive words . It is very much appreciated☺️

[Millbanks in reply to Bozo_the_pumpkin]

Yes indeed!! I have everything crossed for you xxx

[Bozo_the_pumpkin in reply to Millbanks]

Thank you 🙏🏽

[JoyfulStar]

I can do relate to this post and being scared to test on OTD! I was lucky to have some distraction planning for a move during the 2WW. I did not have the option of a blood test so had to do a home pregnancy test.

I went to bed the night before being super scared and took a long time falling asleep. I then woke up super early with a desperate need to wee but refused to get up. I decided to distract myself as long as I could and when I could hold it no longer, I reluctantly got up to do the test. I wanted no doubt so wanted to use my EMU. I ignored the stick for like 5 minutes busying myself with other things. Like Millbanks, I was convinced it had not worked and let out a scream which scared my DH who came running when I saw it was a BFP!

Having previous negative outcomes can really mess up with your mind. I will be rooting for you 🙏🏾

[Bozo_the_pumpkin in reply to JoyfulStar]

Thank you so much for responding.. I can totally relate to holding the wee to put off the moment! it’s nice to know that someone ‘gets it’ every-time I think of it my heart stands pounding. I just want to put my head u see a pillow and avoid 🤣

[Redsequin]

I haven't got as far as transfer yet, and I'm already terrified of the thought of having to do a pregnancy test when I do get to that stage. I guess it's tricky when we've already had lots of negative tests: almost like pregnancy test PTSD.

Thinking of you, though, and fingers crossed for a BFP! Lots of the ladies on here do say they couldn't believe it when they finally got a positive, and I find this reassuaring that it's totally possible to get a BFP even after multiple negatives and even when it feels so unlikely.

xxxx

[Bozo_the_pumpkin in reply to Redsequin]

Thank you very much! I really like the POAS PTSD.. made me laugh. It is so true though.. I can’t decide what is worse.. a test that actually says ‘not pregnant’ or a lonely 1 line in a stark white background. Good luck on your transfer when it comes.. and I hope you have a positive outcome🤞🏽🤞🏽🤞🏽

[Redsequin in reply to Bozo_the_pumpkin]

Haha. Literally, if I even see a pregnancy test in the supermarket I shudder. 😅 Super good luck with OTD! 🧡

[JoyfulStar in reply to Bozo_the_pumpkin]

This comment brings back some memories. The first time I tested, I used several pregnancy sticks including a digital one and when it said and not pregnant, those words haunted me for days! 😟 😅

My last round, I stuck with only 2 brand with pink lines. Even when I found out I was pregnant, I thought about buying a digital one to check if it will say pregnant with the number of weeks but never di. Perhaps still suffered from some kind of pregnancy PTSD! 🤣

I believe in happy endings though and I hope you will get your own 🙏🏾🌈