I haven't actually had the scan yet. It's tomorrow at 10.30am (7+1). I'm a nervous mess I won't lie. A few miscarriages under my belt have def left their mark. My hugely supportive and amazing and loving and wonderful family is probably as invested as I am so I don't want to break their hearts either. I'm trying to just live one day at a time but I keep thinking that, with my track record, let's face it, I'll have the kind of news that deserves downing a tequila bottle to. There is NOTHING to do but sleep and crack on with it but here I am, almost using this site as a personal diary. I've chatted with some of you before on how this is a journey of milestones. I have one tomorrow. Then prenatal genetic testing. Then making it past 12 weeks. Then more tests. Then delivery. Then then then.. I guess I just wanted to share with someone that I'm truly terrified. That despite pretending to myself that it's not real till I hear a heartbeat, it did become real at some point over the last 4 weeks and I really really really don't want to fcking lose it.
I'm gonna make a chamomile, put on a podcast and try to sleep I reckon (it's GMT+7 where I am, I'm not going to bed at 4pm :D). Night ladies. Sending hugs to everyone but especially tight ones to those having an anxious first trimester... #bundleoffckngnerves
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You ladies are amazing. Thank you. You gave me so much strength this morning.
We have a heartbeat!!! 160. And 1cm. 😅😍 Dated 7 and not 7+1 but given I'm 7 hours ahead here and it would have technically been 3am in the UK and therefore probably closer to 7 than 7+1 (I've thought this through, you see?!) I'm not gonna sweat this. 😂
So now we wait some more.. What is there to do between weeks 7 and 12??? As in, what is there to worry about? 😆
My twins had exactly the same heart rate at 7+1 at 180 odd - I had a boy and a girl. With my Singleton daughter her heartrate was also 170 plus so actually 160 is more in the boy range but honestly it can change second to second x
My 160 sounds puny now 😆 I was actually worried about it being at the higher end of the scale according to statistics. I love this community so much!!!! Xoxox
Brilliant, congrats. 1d behind is nothing-I was 2d behind at 8w and 2d behind at 10+6 so at least consistent 😂. Try and take it easy over the next 5 weeks and try not to worry too much! Xx
Well Bella_Bee I'm new to the group but so glad I found it! I'm 36 ttc for almost 2 yrs and nothing about to start icsi - ill not lie the whole process is overwhelming and I feel like a deer in the headlights. Covid has not helped and we have been stalled twice already. Just praying all goes ahead this time and that 🙏 it will work I've been having quite a lot of down days lately wondering if it will ever happen for me and my OH
Big hugs to you! I started a year ago and on my own so can totally understand. Any questions you may have this group is fantastic. Fingers crossed for you xoxo
Omg this emoji is a bit scary but you get what I was going for.. Onto the next hurdle! Bring it on mofos! 😁😆 (I've lost my mind I swear, war survival mentality)
That’s amazing news, so happy for you!! 🤗 it’s crazy, isn’t it - it’s one wait after another…. First you wait for the dreaded OTD - and then you’d think you can enjoy it but you’re waiting for the 7 week viability scan, then the 12 week scan - then when that’s over you’re waiting for the 20 week scan 😅 It’s never ending. All I can say is try and let yourself gently live your life as much as you can, you’ve done everything you can. Watch movies, go for walks, be good to yourself - and the weeks will pile up 😊
I never allowed myself any baby shopping till I hit 24 weeks - I then went into a shop to buy a baby grow and burst into tears in the middle of the shop 🤣🤦♀️ Xx
I knooooooooow! It never ends! I'm suddenly worried I'm gonna be like this till I DIE if I am lucky enough to be a mother. I forgive my slightly neurotic mother EVERYTHING!
Bless your heart. I can see myself doing something like that too. I'm just always on edge! But I did have a tiny little cry today when the heartbeat echoed around the room after a couple of seconds of not finding it! The relief! Hugs to you xoxoxox
In our 36th week 😱 I have been up and down this pregnancy, but mainly good and managed to enjoy it (from around 20 weeks or so my anxiety did settle). I am very excited to meet the little one, but so nervous for the next stage - just want the little one here safely! So hope delivery will go well!! I really do hope it all continues to develop well for you and that you manages to enjoy it (mostly) too!! 🥰
You'll smash it! I seriously think that anyone who has been through infertility and IVF has been through the worst of it.. it's erm, kids' play, from now on
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