Viability scan

[Bella_Bee]

I haven't actually had the scan yet. It's tomorrow at 10.30am (7+1). I'm a nervous mess I won't lie. A few miscarriages under my belt have def left their mark. My hugely supportive and amazing and loving and wonderful family is probably as invested as I am so I don't want to break their hearts either. I'm trying to just live one day at a time but I keep thinking that, with my track record, let's face it, I'll have the kind of news that deserves downing a tequila bottle to. There is NOTHING to do but sleep and crack on with it but here I am, almost using this site as a personal diary. I've chatted with some of you before on how this is a journey of milestones. I have one tomorrow. Then prenatal genetic testing. Then making it past 12 weeks. Then more tests. Then delivery. Then then then.. I guess I just wanted to share with someone that I'm truly terrified. That despite pretending to myself that it's not real till I hear a heartbeat, it did become real at some point over the last 4 weeks and I really really really don't want to fcking lose it.

I'm gonna make a chamomile, put on a podcast and try to sleep I reckon (it's GMT+7 where I am, I'm not going to bed at 4pm :D). Night ladies. Sending hugs to everyone but especially tight ones to those having an anxious first trimester... #bundleoffckngnerves

[Purpledoggy]

Oh bless you, not surprised you are nervous. I hope you manage to get some sleep and wishing you masses of luck for tomorrow xx

[Mai94]

Aw I really hope tomorrow goes well for you! Get that well deserved rest 🤞🏽🤞🏽Xx

[JoyfulStar]

Hoping and praying it all goes well tomorrow 🙏🏾

[Hope_1234]

Awwww I really hope tomorrow goes well for you lovely 💗 keep us all updated 🥰🥰

Ive got mine booked for 2 weeks today and feeling nervous as hell!

Xx

[N-A-58]

Good luck for tomorrow. I also have my clinic scan tomorrow at 7+4.

[Rain415]

Good luck for tomorrow!! Sending you so much positivity! Mines on Friday and really starting to feel like a wreck X ❤️

[Bella_Bee in reply to Rain415]

Good luck tomorrow girl! 🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞 You'll be fine, you got this. 💪

[Bella_Bee]

You ladies are amazing. Thank you. You gave me so much strength this morning.

We have a heartbeat!!! 160. And 1cm. 😅😍 Dated 7 and not 7+1 but given I'm 7 hours ahead here and it would have technically been 3am in the UK and therefore probably closer to 7 than 7+1 (I've thought this through, you see?!) I'm not gonna sweat this. 😂

So now we wait some more.. What is there to do between weeks 7 and 12??? As in, what is there to worry about? 😆

[N-A-58 in reply to Bella_Bee]

That’s great news!! Congratulations!! With a heartbeat of 160, I’m going with a girl 💗

[Bella_Bee in reply to N-A-58]

Nooooo... I want a boy!! 😆😆😆😆😆😆😆😆

[McQueeny in reply to Bella_Bee]

🤣🤣🤣🤞🤞 xx

[Ivfgotadream in reply to Bella_Bee]

My twins had exactly the same heart rate at 7+1 at 180 odd - I had a boy and a girl. With my Singleton daughter her heartrate was also 170 plus so actually 160 is more in the boy range but honestly it can change second to second x

[Bella_Bee in reply to Ivfgotadream]

My 160 sounds puny now 😆 I was actually worried about it being at the higher end of the scale according to statistics. I love this community so much!!!! Xoxox

[Social-Butterfly in reply to Bella_Bee]

Congratulations Balla_Bee! I hope you have a smooth sailing and all you have to do now is look after yourself and enjoy your pregnancy!!!

[Bella_Bee in reply to Social-Butterfly]

Enjoy it??? Between the nausea and pure terror I'm definitely not there yet 😁😁😁Thank you though. Sweet of you ❤

[Purpledoggy in reply to Bella_Bee]

Brilliant, congrats. 1d behind is nothing-I was 2d behind at 8w and 2d behind at 10+6 so at least consistent 😂. Try and take it easy over the next 5 weeks and try not to worry too much! Xx

[Efa2 in reply to Bella_Bee]

Congratulations so delighted to hear your lovely news. Wishing that the rest of your journey goes smoothly and that all goes well xx

[Bella_Bee in reply to Efa2]

Thank you Efa, so kind of you to write.. What's your story? What neurosis do YOU bring to this special group? 😁❤

[Efa2 in reply to Bella_Bee]

Well Bella_Bee I'm new to the group but so glad I found it! I'm 36 ttc for almost 2 yrs and nothing about to start icsi - ill not lie the whole process is overwhelming and I feel like a deer in the headlights. Covid has not helped and we have been stalled twice already. Just praying all goes ahead this time and that 🙏 it will work I've been having quite a lot of down days lately wondering if it will ever happen for me and my OH

[Bella_Bee in reply to Efa2]

Big hugs to you! I started a year ago and on my own so can totally understand. Any questions you may have this group is fantastic. Fingers crossed for you xoxo

[Jess1981 in reply to Bella_Bee]

Congratulations! My baby measured 1 cm which was 7 weeks 5 days exactly according to my hospitals measurements. Glad you smashed this big hurdle! Xx

[Bella_Bee in reply to Jess1981]

Omg this emoji is a bit scary but you get what I was going for.. Onto the next hurdle! Bring it on mofos! 😁😆 (I've lost my mind I swear, war survival mentality)

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[Cinderella5 in reply to Bella_Bee]

Delighted for you lovely!! I know you've been through the mill....wishing you all the best!xx

[McQueeny]

That’s amazing news, so happy for you!! 🤗 it’s crazy, isn’t it - it’s one wait after another…. First you wait for the dreaded OTD - and then you’d think you can enjoy it but you’re waiting for the 7 week viability scan, then the 12 week scan - then when that’s over you’re waiting for the 20 week scan 😅 It’s never ending. All I can say is try and let yourself gently live your life as much as you can, you’ve done everything you can. Watch movies, go for walks, be good to yourself - and the weeks will pile up 😊

I never allowed myself any baby shopping till I hit 24 weeks - I then went into a shop to buy a baby grow and burst into tears in the middle of the shop 🤣🤦‍♀️ Xx

[Bella_Bee in reply to McQueeny]

I knooooooooow! It never ends! I'm suddenly worried I'm gonna be like this till I DIE if I am lucky enough to be a mother. I forgive my slightly neurotic mother EVERYTHING!

Bless your heart. I can see myself doing something like that too. I'm just always on edge! But I did have a tiny little cry today when the heartbeat echoed around the room after a couple of seconds of not finding it! The relief! Hugs to you xoxoxox

[McQueeny in reply to Bella_Bee]

Haha, I know what you mean about mothers 🤣 Awww…. Well I’m super happy for you. Hugs back xxx

[Sparklylife]

I just wanted to wish you all the best with your scan today!

[Sparklylife in reply to Sparklylife]

Just seen your reply - very happy for you!! Congratulations!! 🥰

[Bella_Bee in reply to Sparklylife]

Thank you 🥰🥰🥰🥰 How are you getting on with yours? Not long now, right? Excited?

[Sparklylife in reply to Bella_Bee]

In our 36th week 😱 I have been up and down this pregnancy, but mainly good and managed to enjoy it (from around 20 weeks or so my anxiety did settle). I am very excited to meet the little one, but so nervous for the next stage - just want the little one here safely! So hope delivery will go well!! I really do hope it all continues to develop well for you and that you manages to enjoy it (mostly) too!! 🥰

[Bella_Bee in reply to Sparklylife]

You'll smash it! I seriously think that anyone who has been through infertility and IVF has been through the worst of it.. it's erm, kids' play, from now on

[MomaJoni]

Good Luck this mlorning, let us all know how its goes. How you are feeling is completely normal and Im not sure if we are ever expected to relax.

[smarties85]

Great news!I just got BFP and already thinking about the viability scan so this is great to read.best of luck ❤️

[Bella_Bee in reply to smarties85]

Oohhh that's so exciting! Happy for you. Those lines look beaaaauuuuutiful! Best of luck xoxoxo

[smarties85 in reply to Bella_Bee]

Thank you xx