A personal blog from me..

[XOXO13]

Hi all,

I wanted to share something very personal that I’ve been working on lately, my blog - sprinkleofbabydust.com

Shortly after my miscarriage last year, my mum gave me a journal to help me express how I was feeling through words because I completely lost my voice. I couldn’t and didn’t want to speak to anyone, so writing became my therapy.

More recently, I’ve felt ready to share my story and that’s the reason I started an online blog. It’s still my self-therapy but I also want it to be a place for others to feel a little less alone through their own fertility journeys.

I’ll continue to write about my experience, both past and present with new blogs every so often.

It feels like a big step forward to be sharing such a vulnerable part of me so openly but I really hope it can help someone else maybe facing the same thing.

Anyway, it’s there if any of you would like a peak.

Wishing you all lots of baby dust, support and love 🤍💫 xx

[Millbanks]

This is truly wonderful. So brave and honest, I can see why it’s cathartic to write all of it down. I did a similar thing recently just for myself and wrote down everything that we’d been through so far. It made me realise how strong we are. Xxx

[XOXO13 in reply to Millbanks]

We really are, we are all so strong to go through this journey 🤍💫

[Catlady12345]

Beautiful blog, so honest and relatable to so many of us xx

[XOXO13 in reply to Catlady12345]

Thank you 🤍💫

[PenguinBlue]

This will be a support for so many - well done on doing it and being able to share it xx

[XOXO13 in reply to PenguinBlue]

I hope so, thank you 🤍💫

[Betty08x]

Thank you for sharing this 💛 it really does help reading other people words and feeling that sense of connection that they feel they same way as you! I’ll definitely be following this and I know that you’ll get your baby one day ✨

We had a surprise phone call with our clinic to say that we can start our second round next week so feeling all kinds of ways and love having this forum/ the likes of your blog to come to when I feel like I need a space with people who just get it!xxx

[XOXO13 in reply to Betty08x]

I’m so pleased to hear your second cycle will start next week! Hoping this is the one for you 🤞🏻💫

And thank you for visiting the blog, I really do hope it can be a relatable space for people and hopefully will help others tell their stories too 🤍💫 xxx

[Nic_o_la_la]

This is a lovely blog and a brave thing to do. You write so well. I’m sure this will offer comfort and support to so many, as well as being a journey of strength for yourself. Lots of luck climbing your Everest 💜🍀 xx

[XOXO13 in reply to Nic_o_la_la]

Thank you so much 🤍💫

[Minnie92]

Well done for being so open brave and honest, something I wish I was! I often think about doing a post on Instagram to help raise awareness for infertility but as only a couple of our family members know about our ivf journey I feel like it would be too overwhelming for me, so I really admire your blog! Sending you big hugs 🤗 xxx

[XOXO13 in reply to Minnie92]

Thank you 🤍💫

I actually created a separate Instagram account (@sprinkleofbabydust) for that reason.. whilst I want to be open and honest to help myself and others, I’m still not comfortable with everyone on my personal account knowing my story! I’ve work colleagues as well as past friends and acquaintances on my personal, so by creating a separate unrelated account, I can be as honest as I want to a community of those in our shoes.

It is quite overwhelming, but it’s also cathartic. Definitely therapy for myself 🤍💫 xxx

[Beatrix_K]

Thanks for responding to my concern yesterday with such sweetness when you’ve recently been through something so traumatic. I am so sorry for your loss and all you’ve been through. I have read through your blog and cried. People always say IVF is hard but no one tells you it’ll change you and fundamentally affect your outlook. I hope you can get through your tragedy in time and know your words are providing comfort to many women. XX

[XOXO13 in reply to Beatrix_K]

Thank you so much, that means a lot for me to hear 🤍 I hope you’re feeling better today? Xx

[Bluedestiny]

I am following your blog it is wonderfully written and very raw, you are a talent, I feel every emotion you write. I hope it gives you some therapy to write it down. And I wish you lots of love and luck xx

[XOXO13 in reply to Bluedestiny]

Thank you so much, that really means a lot to me ❤️ Xx

[Hidden]

Sophie I have been thinking of hours since we were going through FET at the same time on here and your blog is so painfully, beautifully, written. It's so honest. My sister in law suffered a miscarriage at 13 weeks recently, the day before her scan, and I have forwarded your blog to her. She said she felt so alone as she didn't know anyone else who had experienced it, or understood how she felt. I am sure she will feel great comfort from your words in knowing she wasn't alone.I wish you so much success in your next cycle xxx

[XOXO13 in reply to Hidden]

I’m so sorry for your sister in law 💔 I hope she’s looking after herself lots. I remember that feeling of isolation so much.

Thank you so much for your kind words ❤️ I hope you’re doing okay? Xx

[Hidden in reply to XOXO13]

She is doing ok but it is something you never really get over, especially at such a late stage. I think her fear is she is 40 now (turned the month after the miscarriage) so the fear of it happening for her, or, as she said, the pain of ever going through it again is something she is coping with now. Physically and mentally. I am sure hearing your experience will help her talk about it more so thank you for sharing it. It's very brave. It's good women speaking up and having each other's backs.I am doing ok, I have got pregnant off this round, god knows if it will last but after two years of negatives being off the starting blocks is huge in itself for me. The strange thing, I will say, is all the constant disappointment and fear and wait just lifts and the 2 years already feels like nothing. I hope everything goes well for you and it's the same for you this next time round too. I am thinking about you and wishing you nothing but luck xx

[XOXO13 in reply to Hidden]

Ah I completely understand that, the pain doesn’t ever go away. I think it’s more that it becomes manageable over time and you learn to sit with it, if that makes sense. At least that’s how it’s been for me. I can completely appreciate her fear though, it is scary.

I’m very pleased to hear your good news, I have everything crossed it’s nothing but positive moving forwards for you and you can focus on bringing your gorgeous baby home ♥️ I love to hear that past time almost becomes insignificant after you’ve got that positive - it’s hopeful as I always feel like I’m being left behind or stuck in time.

And thank you. I’m praying this next time works 🙏🏼🤞🏻 Xxx