Back to feeling stressed and anxious

[Cdwen]

Hey friends

Feeling super emotional today. Ever since it was announced that clinics would reopen I have felt all that old anxiety creeping back. It is compounded by the fact my clinic wont give me a clear idea of where I will be on the waitlist. They really don't have their shit together even in the best of times. I just want to get on with it. How are you all dealing with this? Did anyone feel better when IVF was just taken off the table when the lockdown first started?

Hope you are all doing better than me today. xxx

[Southwestcat]

hi yes much the same , i think it is natural tbh. IVF / infertility at the best is about waiting and uncertainty and lack of control and to have to navigate this within an unprecedented crisis is extremely shit , yes the anxiety and tightness in the chest has returned , I am speaking to counseller next week and really need the support, My family continue to ignore the journey for me and i am single . I find gardening / outside helps/ nature and feeling connected to others who understand x

[Cdwen in reply to Southwestcat]

Gahhh. It is so tough, especially when the outside world seems to view it as some frivolous, 'non-essential' pursuit sometimes. It is good you will get to speak to a counsellor. I finally have a referral through so will get to speak to someone June 29. Definitely walks in nature have been helping as well as coffee. ahhaha. Live in an apartment unfortunately but I do have my puppy for loving. xxxx

[Italy300618]

Hi hun, yes I'm exactly the same. As devastated as I was to have my cycle cancelled before lockdown after a week I felt a bit of weight had lifted, there was nothing we could do, so decided to have a couple of weeks and treat it like a holiday. I was soooo happy when they said they can reopen soon, but literally an hour later I'm back to the person I was before, extremely anxious and stressed about it all. My clinic are being super lovely but all I want them to say is right full steam ahead you can go, but they cant and it is getting to me. You arent alone, and as soon as ivf rises its head again it will heighten all your emotions its natural it's a bloody shitty thing we have to do through. But we will do it 💗 sending a big hug xx

[Cdwen in reply to Italy300618]

Totally feel you on the Yaaaaayyyy let's do it and then the 'ohhhhh, back in the race :(' feeling. Thanks for the love. I really hope you will can find some grace as it all gets back going. xxxx

[Catlady12345]

Hi Cdwen,

Ah I totally understand, it’s hard not to get anxious. I know it’s tough but try and channel your emotions into positive ones. Ultimately it’ll take as long as it takes with the clinic, it’s out of your control. However you have a great opportunity ahead (whenever it gets going again) and take this time to look after you, recharge the batteries and enjoy the time off the meds/contact worrying etc. It’ll happen for you 💕 xx

[Cdwen in reply to Catlady12345]

Great advice! I will feel the feels and then move on. Thanks for the words of wisdom. xxxxx

[Bunnys123]

Hello,

This feelings are so normal and I know that doesn’t make it any better.

I didn’t think the whole experience could get worse until everything was put on hold.

Try and take some positive energy from the fact things will start moving again and any movement is progress no matter how small.

Try and do something you enjoy doing, I’ve spent today just reading and relaxing. Not fighting the anxiety I feel ❤️

Stay safe and well xxx

[Cdwen]

IVF is definitely humbling in the sense that you don't think it can get worse till it does. It really is such a battle. Will definitely take up your advice today and switch off from the internet and just chill with book. I did treat myself to a take-away coffee this morning which was amazng. Lots of love to yo xxxxxxxx