8 days of stims and everything just got cancelled

[RhinoCat]

So, my phone call just came.

The retired doctors at my clinic are being called back to the nhs.

There is no chance of an anaesthetist next week for my egg collection .

They will not count this as my last paid cycle and will supply they medication when we are able to start again .

All is not lost but it feels like it 😳

This thing is bigger than any of us, so for now I will hold onto the hope that the good Lord upstairs ‘has plans to prosper and not to harm , plans to give me hope and a future ‘ Jerimiah 9 verse 11.

I am not sick.

No one in my family is sick .

This is not the end, just a bump in the road .

May we all find the courage to face the things we cannot change .

Be kind to yourself , and others.

Stay at home 🏠

Strength and courage to you all mighty ivf sisters,

Hugs

🦏 🐈 x

[dreaming-dream]

I got the cancellation call too. I have been crying. It's so sad.

World is in a mess. All we can do is pray.

I know the fertility community will overcome this. We must stay strong and keep safe.

[RhinoCat in reply to dreaming-dream]

If we could just have completed the egg collection 😫 I’ve cried too and I’ll cry some more, ya can cry really well on this medication 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

Hugs to you my friend 😘💐💐💐💐💐💖

[dreaming-dream in reply to RhinoCat]

Thank you RhinoCat xx

[Picalilli99]

I’m so sorry to hear this. Absolutely gutted for you (and others facing similar news and ongoing uncertainty). Wonderful words as always lovely. You are amazing and your time will come. Big virtual hugs to you xxx

[RhinoCat in reply to Picalilli99]

Thanks for your hugs, nice to know people here get it. My best friend is useless and just replied ‘understandable in the circumstances with covid etc so prob not wanting to waste nhs resources ‘...... we are paying privately 🙄

[Picalilli99 in reply to RhinoCat]

Ouch! 🤬 🤬🤬🤬 What kind words?!! Sorry that people just don’t get it. We do, so if you ever just need to rant - rant away my love. Sending positive understanding vibes your way ❤️ xxx

[Italy300618 in reply to RhinoCat]

Mine said pretty much that too. Was seriously pissed off!

[ttcemmie]

So so sorry to hear this, lovely RhinoCat. What a lovely message, though, and I'm so glad you're finding positives in this difficult time. You will get through this. We will get through this. Lots of love and hugs. xxxx

[RhinoCat in reply to ttcemmie]

Thanks pet, so many of us in the same boat right now. Hugs to you , let your journey be the lucky one 😘😘💖💖💖💖💖💖🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻💐💐💐💐💐💐

[ttcemmie in reply to RhinoCat]

Thanks. You're so lovely. xxx

[Miracle43]

I know how you feel, it’s just like fertility this is out of our control.

My clinic is stopping treatments for about 12 weeks, I’m over 40 and feel like any chance I had is slowly being taken away.

We have to try to remain positive : it takes 12 weeks to generate new eggs, so let’s get back on the vitamins, out in the garden and get the positive vibes going. We can do this 🥰xx

[RhinoCat in reply to Miracle43]

Out of our control from start to finish . Nice way to think of the 12 weeks, although fi now , all. Want to do is drink gin.

[Miracle43 in reply to RhinoCat]

Are they going to re scan you? Could they give you the trigger and you go o’natural? Don’t waste them... there’s not much else we can do 😉❤️

Do it, have a gin xx

[RhinoCat in reply to Miracle43]

He just said to stop all medication , so I’ll save the trigger for the next round . 🤷🏼‍♀️

[Miracle43 in reply to RhinoCat]

I’m assuming you’ll still ovulate? Ask them. You can still make use of the juicy eggs.

I’m just waiting for a call how to manage my miscarriage 😢. Why is it everything happens at the same time? X

[RhinoCat in reply to Miracle43]

Awh pet, so much heartache just everywhere 💐💐💐💐💐💐😘😘😘😘

[Miracle43 in reply to RhinoCat]

❤️ It was literally a little miracle, I’d been stimming for 7 days, went for a scan and found a ‘blob’ continued to stim for two more days, re scan .. still there. I joked saying maybe it’s my miracle baby.. said they would test to be sure.

Thinking there’s no way.... I was, I bloody caught naturally!!! There was no signs on my baseline. The little bud overcame so much, we saw it’s little heartbeat at nearly 7 wks, then Friday 8wk+4... gone 😭.

I’m the wrong side of 40, with everything shitting down I’m so scared I won’t get another chance x

[RhinoCat in reply to Miracle43]

Amazing 😉 love your typo ! Everything is literally shitting down 🤣 aah, a much needed giggle ! Thanks you 😘

[Hidden in reply to Miracle43]

It's always the way isn't it that everything always goes wrong at the same time!

[Miracle43 in reply to Hidden]

I’m struggling to stay positive 😞. surgery booked for Friday. Due to the virus they can’t do it under general, it’s going to be local without sedation 😳. Sending ❤️ to you xx

[RhinoCat in reply to Miracle43]

Not long now pet, ask for all the pain relief you can have . Desperate times altogether . I hope time passes quickly and that you get to Saturday in a flash so you can begin the process of healing , body , mind and soul.

[Miracle43 in reply to RhinoCat]

How are you feeling? Stupid question I know 😞. Been thinking about you. Sending hugs and love 🥰xx

[RhinoCat in reply to Miracle43]

I feel really sad. I cried when I woke up. My ovaries are hurting which makes me cry again 😭😭😭😭 I’ve sent a message to my clinic letting them know that I’ve read the hfea directive and that I am heart broken that they cannot complete my cycle even though other clinics are . I’ve asked for them to confirm that my next round is free and that they will supply the medication as this was mentioned on the phone but not in writing . This will help me to calm my anger and move on . I had prosecco last night and a gin . How are you pet? 💐

[Miracle43 in reply to RhinoCat]

I know how you feel 😢💔, there’s nothing I can say to make you feel better only that here for you, to cry, shout, laugh whatever.

Life can be so cruel.

I know it won’t change it, but I understand how you feel. To get it written down is like the starting block for the next phase of the journey, you have confirmation that will happen.

I just can’t get my head around what’s happened 💔. Just feel like I’m in a daze.

We hope to try naturally again when we can, but if that fails we will have one last cycle.. we hope.

We had already paid for the cycle and meds and done 10 days of stims when we found out I was pregnant so we have to pay a cancellation fee 😞and re purchase all the meds I used.

Just seems so unfair.

I’m so worried about the surgery and panicking that I won’t get another chance. Thank you for asking xx

[RhinoCat in reply to Miracle43]

It all seems unfair 😞😞😞😞 much love 💖 💐💐💐💐💐

[KiboXX]

Oh RhinoCat I’m so sorry. I know there is a lot going on in the world right now but this is still a gut punch and you’re allowed to feel like it is.

Love your positivity as always and when the time is right again, I can’t wait to see the rest of your journey xxx

[RhinoCat in reply to KiboXX]

All I can think of is the wasted eggs and my aching ovaries. Hopefully these will subside in the next week or so . Until then, gin time!

[Chel91]

So sorry! Big hugs to you! This usual wait is hard enough, but good for you for trying to be positive. Wishing you the best of luck for your next cycle SOON!! 🤞🙏🤗 xxxx

[Corchi]

I admire you for your strength. You are way more positive and strong then I am! Respect warrior friend 💪🏼💪🏼💪🏼 I pray this all ends soon so we can enjoy everything in life in general. 15 days inside and going nuts. Sending you light 💡 and 💕

[Hidden]

Sending you a big hug, the world is such a difficult place right now. Thank you for the positivity against all odds

[Italy300618]

Argh I am so so sorry Rhino Cat, I understand the heartache of not being able to go ahead with treatment, but to be stopped at this point? You poor poor thing. You are right, it is just a bump in the road, It will happen again at the right circumstances. The world is not a happy place right now. I hope you are ok, and that your poor body can get back to normal as soon as possible xx

[CLDxxx]

Sorry to hear this RhinoCat. It’s really a sxxt time 😔

Keep your positivity up but also feel sorry for yourself too & have a good cry.

Stay safe

Sending love 💕 xxx

[Keepingfaith85]

Oh no, I'm so sorry 😔 not the news you want at all. Let out all the emotion and I know you will come back stronger than ever ❤️ Lots of love to you

[Hidden]

It’s all very true, wise 🦏 🐈, my friend ❤️I’m sorry your cycle has been cancelled. If I could quickly learn how to become an anaesthetist I would do your EC myself ❤️Let’s be patient together ❤️Sending love

[RhinoCat in reply to Hidden]

I imagine the pain in your heart is far greater than mine today . Much love 💖 to you sweet pet 💖😘😘😘😘💐

[JoP32]

Oh no! Argh, I’m so gutted for you lovely 😔 So gutted.

Your picture is very true though, although at the time of the knock down it sometimes doesn’t feel like it. But it definitely does make us stronger!

Thinking of you and again, so sorry 😔 xx

[Hidden]

That's a blow isn't it when you have psyched yourself up for treatment only to have the door slammed in your face!

[Hidden]

I love your attitude ❤️ we will come out if this stronger and healthier with hopefully a lil one we can call our miracle. I do wonder Rhino and others that have their cycle canceled, what is the advice after days of stims? I can imagine you were growing follicles and what if they pop and you hve timed intercours ?

[Tiddly1984]

Hi Rhino, I definitely understand why you’re disappointed; it’s disheartening to have to face the uncertainty and delay as a result of the cancelled transfers but hopefully things will be back on track soon. Also admire your positivity and selfless gratitude in the midst of the disappointment. Hugs...x

[amandac84]

I’m so sorry RhinoCat but you’re positive spirit is something you should be so proud of. Well don, keep strong xx