Sitting on the hospital bed contemplating the irony of it all!!
So after 1 embryo transfer on the 25th of November and bleeding and positive tests and more bleeding and more positive tests ... 2 scarabs later it’s confirmed that I have another ectopic pregnancy!
Luckily this time we caught it early and I will not loose me right tube or ovary!! They did an injection and hopefully it will go away!!
So it took several injections to get pregnant and a couple to stop being pregnant!! After the worse Christmas yet I am contemplating do I try again or is this the universe telling me to stop!!
I know it’s early and I am tiered and I am still digesting it all but I am thinking when will I ever stop wanting a baby and how much I am I willing to put myself and others for that desire!!
I am angry! Happy it worked! Unhappy it was in the wrong place!! Worried that it may happen again!! I just feel like I am in a nightmare and I hope that someone can move their magic wand and I get my wish cons true!!
I hope I haven’t put anyone off and please do look on the silver lining one embryo and it worked so there is hope for everyone ... I just don’t know where I am at the moment!!
I cannot do anything now for 3 to 4 months due to the medication but fingers crossed I will come on the other side by then!!
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I'm so sorry! It does take time to heal mentally after a loss. I also felt a bit like Mother Nature was telling me to just give it up but you gather your strength back....who knows how but we do! Sensing love & hugs.xx
I’m so sorry lovely, you really have been through the mill and it just seems so unfair! You sound so strong and it’s great how despite everything going on you can pick out the positive. Take time to heal and look after yourself. Sending big hugs xxx
I’m so sorry Hun, it’s just so unfair. I’ve had 3 ectopic myself so I know how awful & painful they can be. Is it Methotrexate you’ve had? I hope it starts to take effect soon and you aren’t in too much pain.
I’ve often asked myself the question am I supposed to have a baby, when they repeatedly end in loss and family members have also told me they are really worried about me trying again when I’ve almost died 3 times, but it just makes a more determined.
I think everyone’s different though and you just have to take the time to heal and get through your loss and see how you feel when your mentally & physically in a better place Sending love 💕🙏xX
Hi Ariel, I’m so sorry to hear your news. It’s so devastating.
As clover said, take the time to heal and get through this loss and reassess when you’re in a better place.
If if helps, I was so down, fed up and questioning whether we should just stop after our last loss in November. But time really does heal and I now feel in a better place and ready to have another go. The next 3-4 months off might be a good thing, it might give you the time to heal and dust yourself off ready get back on this rollercoaster for another go.
Just take care of and be kind to yourself right now. You deserve lots of pampering. And chocolate! (And wine! 😝)
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Think it's all over
a little advice from my midwife to all the bleeders out there
I think it’s all over 
An update: all going well, so far 
Hoping beyond all hope
