I dont know what to do.

[sarahharas]

Good morning,

I am during my last monitored medicated natural cycle of OI (out of 14) and for the first time ever my period os late.

I had suspected starting spotting on saturday night and a full period yesterday, but absolutely nothing.

Yesterday, I was a 100% sure that my body is playing Tricks on me and that it will come, but hour by hour this certainity is getting lower. I am too scared to test, I cannot handle holding a negative test in my hand.

It is impossible that I am pregnant, I am just having a long cycle which is also good as my cycles are usually quite short.

When would you test?

I was always suffering from really bad PMS symptoms, but this month I had absolutely nothing, since yesterday my boobs are a bit sore, but nothing in comparioson to the last months. And I started having some pain in my abdomen yesterday as well, but it feels more like the pain during ovulation rather than AF.

I tell myself that I cannot be pregnant, this is absolutely impossible, but my heart still has hope and I need to protect it.

I think I am going nuts.

xx

[Hidden]

Morning lovely. What a time for you. There is always hope as you say yourself. However hard you should test at some point. It is already too late for today but how about telling yourself you will do the test either tomorrow or next day fmu? Make sure your husband is with you xxx

[sarahharas in reply to Hidden]

I know. I always thought I would be happy when this happens, but I was not expecting these feelings. I just have a quite important work event today and I cannot have a breakdown in front of 100 people.

Why is this so hard?

[Cinderella5]

I always hate the though of doing a pregnancy test so would normally set myself around 5-7 days of if I dont get a period within that time then I will test. Its horrible seeing that stark white come up.xx

[MissSaoPaulo]

Sometimes the body does play tricks, I had a few of these while ttc naturally. It's a total headf**k. I really, really hope it's the real deal for you this time xxx

[Gem2410]

Hi. I totally understand why you are reluctant to take a test. You should do the test when you feel ready emotionally. I wish you all the best xx

[sarahharas]

Thank you all this really helps me!

I still did not get my period which I guess might be a good sign!?

I did not test today, however I am much calmer. There are two options, either I am pregnant or I am not, but the decision has already been made, so doing a test does not change that and I would not change my habits in either way (ok...I would have a glass of wine if I would get my period) so it does not matter if I know it now or later