I wrote this poem for my husband and a future miracle if we were ever lucky enough to have one. My dream would be to show them this poem I wrote some day, to show them our struggle and how much they were loved and wanted by a loving couple.
- The Things I Wish For You
Its IVF for you they say,
This is probably the only way.
Its Unexplained infertility,
Which could affect your ability.
There’s no funding here for you,
It’s a postcode lottery if they do.
Let’s get the treatment underway,
We can tailor the medication to
Keep your risk of OHSS at bay.
This is the hand you have been dealt,
It’s not uncommon but that’s how it felt.
It’s going to be such a long road,
Fertility tests I’ve began to loath.
They say my medication is ready,
I begin injecting trying to keep steady.
The pills and the scans too,
Everything takes longer,
To get closer to you.
The feeling of being weak,
Not being able to speak.
People say it will be fine,
They say not to worry that the baby,
Is stubborn and not in a hurry,
The future seems all too blurry.
I pined for you on Mother’s Day,
Some words I longed for you to say.
To see your tiny hands and feet,
Would make me feel whole,
Content and complete.
I want to see you kick a ball,
Grow so clever, strong and tall.
Meet a new love, get married,
And start a family too,
All of those great things in life I want for you.
I promise to be your best friend,
An ear for you I will always lend.
I long to hear you call me mummy,
For you not to grow up in a hurry.
I want to see your dad shine through you,
He would be so proud of everything you do.
To hold your hand and walk with you,
All those things he longs to do.
He has so many things to teach you,
To be thoughtful, kind and sweet too.
I know you would be the apple of his eye,
Even though he’s a tough military guy.
I hope one day we get a chance to meet you,
A chance to hold, kiss and greet you.
We dream of tucking you into bed,
Two proud parents to lay a kiss,
Upon your perfect little head.
Dream of stars and moons too,
We will be here watching over you.