Any advice!

[Aleelilook]

Not sure I can go on with this 😕 2 years of back to back ivf, 4 rounds with my eggs, 2 with DE, and two miscarriages and thousands of pounds later I’m not sure my heart or brain can take anymore! For the first time in a very long time I’m happy at work, I’m having fun again, and I’m sleeping! And although my heart aches for a baby I’m not sure I can bring myself to go through the pain again 🤷🏼‍♀️ ideally I’d like to put it off for a bit longer, but I’ve just turned 36, my womb is inhospitable, my eggs are crap, and my NK cells want to cause havoc!! I’m not sure Ive got the option to put it off 🤦🏼‍♀️ I feel like I’m going round in circles! Any advice welcome!

[Missy_22]

Oh my god I thought you were writing that for me. I 100% know how you feel. I have done six rounds and now have spent thousands. Have had so many loses and funerals too.

I have got myself back to me being happy lost weight and feel good, no ivf drugs in my system. I’m thinking can I do it again such a hard decision.

I guess the only person who can make that decision is you my lovely.

My cousin at 45 just gave birth in her 7th round and there message to me was not to give up. So I think I will go again once more.

Everyone is different and you can have a life without a baby and a very happy one.

Ps sorry if I went off on one!!!!

Take care my lovely xxxx

[Aleelilook in reply to Missy_22]

Oh no you didn’t go on, thank you so much for your reply, just makes me feel less like a maniac!! I just feel I go around in circles from minute to minute sometimes!! I suppose I just need to step back for a bit.

Good luck with your next shot lovely!

Xxx

[Hidden]

Oh gosh am right with ya.... well as I hit theb45 mark this sept just had discussion with husband that this will be our last go at

Number 8 or 9 lost count but too much heartache and soul destroying must be stopped not too mention the havoc on marriage.

One last shot...

Good luck

[Aleelilook in reply to Hidden]

It really is soul destroying 😢 thank you for your reply, wishing you lots of luck with the next go. Sometimes I wonder how we all put one foot in front of the other?!🤦🏼‍♀️🤦🏼‍♀️xxx

[tiger-cub]

My dear it’s d story of my life .

After 7 cycles I’m floored . As u gurls know I don’t even feel like writing on this site . It’s more painful to pen it .

I’ve just not got myself to do anything uptil now . Last whole year I was on antidepressants. This year still thinking about going de. I guess I’m d least courageous person as u compared to u amazing ladies .

U all (tamtam, aleelilook and missy? r my pillars of strength now .

Hope u get ur head around and maybe then think about surrogacy.

[ocean_a]

I was in the same situation a few years ago... I took a break for 1.5 years and now I start from scratch. How are you now, did you proceed with your rounds?