Eventful first private appointment mixed feelings :/

[ICSIBaby86]

Appointment started off well ! Was going to start treatment 11th Feb ! Still have loads of medication left in date till may so saved £800 !! HOWEVER there’s always an However in my life.. they scanned me and think they can see the polyp so may have to halt treatment AGAIN !!! And have a polypmectomy. I only finished my period yesterday so they’ve asked me to come back next Wednesday for another scan, theyre hoping it’s just a bit of old blood left in my uterus or a skin fold :/ ... I just can’t believe it I’ve had an orange sized Tumor removed from my uterus now something else has moved in ! 😭

[Cinderella5]

Awww I'm so gutted for you! You've been through so much already surgery wise. I'm really hoping that your next scan give you more positive news. Big hugs.xx

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OMG thats sooo frustrating - really sorry for you - this is such a cruel up and down process x

[ICSIBaby86]

When she went to scan me to check everything... I said “this is where it all goes wrong” because I knew ! I’m just praying it’s old blood because I’m still spotting after my period. Or I guess it could be from my surgery I do not know. It’s just annoying. Il have to be patient and wait till Wednesday to find out xxxxx

[Cinderella5 in reply to ICSIBaby86]

Gee whizz its so bad when we always expect stuff to go wrong....guess it just shows what a crappy experience of treatment we've had so far. Think it's hard to find our patience and hope when you've been through so much. I had an odd scan a while back when I was still spotting which turned out to be old blood....clinic thought I might be pregnant and had to wee on a stick even although I knew I wouldn't be.🤦‍♀️ Fingers crossed for better scan next week for us both!!🤞xx

[ICSIBaby86 in reply to Cinderella5]

Oh god that’s awful ! It is relentless and exhausting and someday I feel like I have no control of my own body. The trouble is I have terrible health anxiety and phobia of hospitals believe it or not. I literally go to jelly going into my gp surgery. I’ve had it since a teenager. So IVF for me has been a battle mentally even when it comes to hospital visits etc. I’m looking into having CBT therapy now to help. It’s hard when your body is being criticised constantly. Well here’s to next week for the both of us ✨✨ we have to have some luck !! Xxxxx

[Cinderella5 in reply to ICSIBaby86]

Oh gosh, that must be so hard! CBT is supposed to be really helpful, defo be worth a look for coping mechanisms!!🤞🤞xx

[chickp in reply to ICSIBaby86]

I would be really interested to know how you get on with the cbt. I also have terrible anxiety attacks in hospital and other medical settings and it just makes the whole process even harder! I hope it helps you x

[ICSIBaby86 in reply to chickp]

Il message you now lovely xx

[everhopeful83]

Delays are so hard, I feel your pain. I really hope it’s not anything that needs removed. Wishing you the best of luck for your scan next week 💗xxx

[ladyc83]

Hiya lovely, sorry to hear about what happened today 😔 can you help to advise which private clinic you are going too as we are looking for private clinics too after 3 failed NHS cycles thank you x

[ICSIBaby86 in reply to ladyc83]

Hiya We are with CRGW in Cardiff I have to be honest they are so so kind and helpful, complete different experience to the nhs. I’m glad we’ve made the jump to private care. I’m not sure where you live but there’s also a clinic in Bristol xxxx