Today my clinic asked me if I want to go ahead with this cycle and try to collect one egg from the one follicle which is growing.
I always knew that trying full stimm short protocol with an AMH as low as mine (0.6) was a chance, but I wanted to try. And I'm glad I have, now I know my body hasn't responded well. I can stop wondering! The clinic gave me max dose meds for a few days and clomid to see if it could turbo charge my ovaries, then several days of being told to wait and come back to see what effect took place (6 agonising days!). Today the scan showed quite clearly that 1 follicle is growing and responding.
It feels so unlikely that that 1 egg will be good quality, and the clinic said my LH was a bit high, and that can indicate poor quality. I've been here twice before in natural modified cycles, pinning hope on a single follicle, and getting nothing. So I'm wondering if I do cancel.
And maybe another month might have more follicles available...? I do typically have between 1-5 follicles in scans, but never many when I get the go ahead with treatment! Though I was in this situation in July and cancelled then because I hoped to retry in a month with more follicles. Then I ended up losing 6 months because of a cyst making treatment impossible.
I also don't really want to string this out much longer. I spent the first half of last year doing 3 NM cycles and the second half trying to do a 4th. It is emotionally exhausting and I feel my life has been on hold.
It feels like such a lot of money to spend when there is so little hope - I could save myself the money, the disappointment and save my sample of donor sperm in case I want to do a donor egg cycle in the future.
It all feels a bit rubbish and hopeless, but that maybe I should keep going and try anyway.
What would you do? Thanks for any responses! xx