I do hope this post doesn't upset anyone but just wanted to share the hope that miracles can happen, though I'm kinda in disbelief myself!
After over 5 years of ttc, invasive procedures, being diagnosed with a low ovarian reserve, ivf, miscarriage and wondering if it would ever be I tested this morning as my af was late.
I prepared myself as usual with the aside of, af is late, that's it, you'll just have to accept this is the start of menopause, then low and behold, 2 lines appeared in the test window. My heart was bumping and I fell to my knees and wept as I just couldn't believe this was happening to me, especially as during all the stress of finishing the house renovation and moving I've had little sleep, caffeine and enough rubbish food to sink a battleship!
I took another test thinking it must have been a fluke and sure enough, it came out positive too!
It's fair to say today has been filled with shocked and teary exchanges and utter gratitude for whatever power has afforded us this miracle. It really hasn't sunk in yet and I keep waiting for someone to tell me it isn't real.
It's strange though that my intuition has told me to hold off ivf and I'm glad we did. We are due to start again in January but am praying to God that all this is real, that I sustain this pregnancy and we don't need to.
I guess what I want to say is that each and every one of us should never lose faith in our dreams, which I admit I have been guilty of.
Today has given me faith that we can all achieve parenthood in one way or another and the meaning will be all the deeper for the battle we have fought to get there.
Love and babydust to all xxx