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Pinch me, can this miracle be real? (Warning: sensitive post)

Pookymama
Pookymama
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I do hope this post doesn't upset anyone but just wanted to share the hope that miracles can happen, though I'm kinda in disbelief myself!

After over 5 years of ttc, invasive procedures, being diagnosed with a low ovarian reserve, ivf, miscarriage and wondering if it would ever be I tested this morning as my af was late.

I prepared myself as usual with the aside of, af is late, that's it, you'll just have to accept this is the start of menopause, then low and behold, 2 lines appeared in the test window. My heart was bumping and I fell to my knees and wept as I just couldn't believe this was happening to me, especially as during all the stress of finishing the house renovation and moving I've had little sleep, caffeine and enough rubbish food to sink a battleship!

I took another test thinking it must have been a fluke and sure enough, it came out positive too!

It's fair to say today has been filled with shocked and teary exchanges and utter gratitude for whatever power has afforded us this miracle. It really hasn't sunk in yet and I keep waiting for someone to tell me it isn't real.

It's strange though that my intuition has told me to hold off ivf and I'm glad we did. We are due to start again in January but am praying to God that all this is real, that I sustain this pregnancy and we don't need to.

I guess what I want to say is that each and every one of us should never lose faith in our dreams, which I admit I have been guilty of.

Today has given me faith that we can all achieve parenthood in one way or another and the meaning will be all the deeper for the battle we have fought to get there.

Love and babydust to all xxx

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Hidden
Hidden

Looks good to me, congrats xxxx

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Pookymama
Pookymama
in reply to Hidden

Thanks lovely! How're you doing? Xx

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Hidden
Hidden

Congratulations on your nappy news!

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Pookymama
Pookymama
in reply to Hidden

Thank you jo! I can't get my head around someone even saying that to me at this point, ya know, like it's something said to someone else... madness! Xx

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Blueberryy

Superrrr !!!Many congratulations 💕

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Pookymama

Thank you Blueberryy! Hope you're journey is going smoothly! Xx

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Lovefood1984

Ooo I remember you posting about before/after Christmas as you were having a dilemma, congratulations! Some things are just meant to be and I really hope this is your time xxx

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Pookymama

Aw hun, that nearly made me cry! Thank you so much! Best of luck to you too xx

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Sweets1

Congratulations xx

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Pookymama
Pookymama
in reply to Sweets1

Thank you! Xx

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Tugsgirl

Oh wow. Amazing. Congratulations xx

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Pookymama
Pookymama
in reply to Tugsgirl

Thank you Vicky! I genuinely can't get over it atm tbh. How're things with you? Xx

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Tugsgirl
Tugsgirl
in reply to Pookymama

Ok. Cd22 here. Waiting for Cd1 to book fet. Transfer no.6 😂 xx

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Pookymama
Pookymama
in reply to Tugsgirl

Massive luck to you Vicky and prayers that this is the one! Xx

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ShinyStar

Wow wow wow, I remember reading your post a while ago wondering about putting the IVF off for a bit because of your house renovations and food prep/sleep/stress/etc and now you’re pregnant!!!! Amazing! Congratulations! 💕 🤰 ✨👼🏻 xxx

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Pookymama
Pookymama
in reply to ShinyStar

I know, I just can't believe it! It's like something was urging me to wait. If this has taught me anything it's to trust my instinct and have some faith! How're things with you shiny? Xx

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ShinyStar
ShinyStar
in reply to Pookymama

Yes I definitely believe this, everything happens for a reason and we should listen to our guardian angels, they know what’s best for us 👼🏻 💕

Things are OK with me, I’m just hangin in there waiting for Friday test day. I’ve been pretty rough this week with OHSS so back to the clinic for scans and bloods etc but starting to feel a bit better since this afternoon.

Just keeping as busy as I can, continuing doing my relaxation and mindfulness work and trying to stay positive.

Congratulations again, I really am absolutely over the moon for you xxx

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Pookymama
Pookymama
in reply to ShinyStar

How're you feeling after your OHSS hun? And how did Friday go?

Mindfulness and relaxation are so helpful along this often difficult path aren't they hun!

I hope and pray Friday went well for you, but if you didn't get the news you wanted, please be gentle and kind with yourself and allow yourself the time you need until your very own "meant to be" time comes along.

Big hugs xx

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jess1981

This is amazing. Aww Pookymana I’m so happy for you. Congratulations! We both cried when got our BFP. Don’t be sorry to post, stories of hope are needed. ❤️ Enjoy this moment it so magical & special. All the best with your pregnancy 🤰🏼 xoxo 😘

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Pookymama
Pookymama
in reply to jess1981

Thank you so much Jess! It is incredibly emotional isn't it? I just keep filling up, smiling to myself and touching my belly - am somewhere between waves of magic and disbelief. I'll believe it more when we get the blood work at the docs I guess but for now I'm convincing myself 2 tests can't be false positives and at 35 I'm pregnant naturally for the first time and that's a massive leap where I haven't been before so I'm grateful for that.

How's your journey going lovely? Xx

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jess1981
jess1981
in reply to Pookymama

It’s wonderful news & no false positives don’t happen much more likely to get a false negative ( unless you have a trigger shot of HCG) I kept staring at the test & couldn’t believe how lucky we were! It’s the best feeling in the world 😍

I am good thank you, I’m 9 weeks pregnant & we had our first booking appointment with the midwife. It was very surreal after TTC over 7 years!!! We are now awaiting our 12 weeks scan , quite nervous as we had a chemical pregnancy last year & got bad news at the 6 week scan. Hopefully the scan will reassure us all is fine 😍 xoxo

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Pookymama
Pookymama
in reply to jess1981

I bet it was surreal with the midwife after waiting all that time! It felt surreal booking our first midwife appointment yesterday too!

When you've been through so much it is nerve-wracking waiting for first scans that so many are able to take for granted as just a wee step, I know what you mean. We lost our pregnancy after our 1st attempt at ivf so we never feel quite safe til each positive milestone makes the fear drop away.

We were at the cinema last night and towards the end of the film I felt (sorry tmi) a gush of fluid. I felt dizzy and sick and really panicked I was bleeding but discovered it was just clear fluid which apparently occurs due to increased estrogen. We were meant to be going to a wedding tonight but have decided to take it gently instead as morning sickness and fatigue have kicked in too and we want to play it safe and rest up.

Have you had any symptoms yet hun? How're you doing?

I hope your scan reassures you that everything is progressing well lovely and that this is your time! Xxx 😘

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Button-123

Love this ❤️ Massive congratulations xx

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Pookymama

Thank you Button! How're you? Xx

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Button-123

All good with me thanks x

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kirstyblue

I am so happy for you. Congratulations xx

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Pookymama

Thank you kirstyblue! How're things with you? Xx

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kirstyblue

I’m good thank you. My transfer is booked for Tuesday. Excited but nervous..not of the transfer itself..just nervous about the outcome 🤞 xx

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Pookymama

Massive luck to you for the next stages then hun! I know how scary it can be but also that this could be your moment! Keep believing beaut! Xx

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Camillage

Ohhh what an amazing post. I am so happy that you have achieved this without having to go down the ivf route. I wish you a happy and successful pregnancy and thank you so much for sharing xxc

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Pookymama
Pookymama
in reply to Camillage

Thank you Camillage! I can't quite believe it tbh, after previous ivf and thinking it would never happen I guess we all have that chance! How're things with you? Xx

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Camillage
Camillage
in reply to Pookymama

Oh you know, on the wait for the next stage, worrying about every small thing or nothing. Ha ha x

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TerryNaples

Massive congratulations! I’m really happy for you 😍

Thanks for sharing this! Stories like yours keep me hopeful and faithful that one day, one way or another, I’ll have my lil miracle too!

Thanks again x

Enjoy every moment x

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Pookymama

Thank you Terry! These kinds of stories kept me hopeful too!

I'm sure your little miracle will also come. Like the song says "don't stop believing!" 😂

How're things going for you? Xx

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TerryNaples

Thanks!

We’ve not started treatment yet. Waiting for my next period to call the clinic and get started.. but I think we’ll be postponed until after Christmas.. I can’t wait, honestly.

Xxx

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Jen_jen

Such lovely news 💕

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Pookymama
Pookymama
in reply to Jen_jen

Thank you Jen, I hope you're well! Xx

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Niki_B

Thank you. I haven't been on the site very much as after my 2nd round of ivf and 2nd BFN a few weeks ago i just really havent been mentally well. My clinical has said I can start straight away on my 2 day 6 remaining frosties (Was told success rates aren't as high on day 6 embies) but I said I wait would wait till follow up with my doctor...which is today in a few hours. My heart is saying just wait a couple months until I'm feeling better mentally and just feel stronger was thinking January. But my head is saying just start now and get it over with! (I'm in a very negative mindset right now that these 2 will fail also then that's it for us) so I shall listen to my heart and tell my doctor today to wait a couple months sometime in the new year. So thank you so much! And a big massive congratulations to you!! I remember your post and i remember you asking for advice. You must be over the moon! I am so happy that you now dont have to go through another physically and emotionally crippling round of ivf! Am so happy for you 😘❤🙌

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Osayuwa
Osayuwa
in reply to Niki_B

So sorry to hear about this, I can imagine how you feel. Take it one step at a time, you need to be very mentally ready and fit to embark on the process again. I wish you all the very best

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Niki_B
Niki_B
in reply to Osayuwa

Thank you. My appt went well and even my doctor agreed that a nice break over Xmas is exactly what I need 😊 huge congrats to you, I wish you a happy and healthy 9 months! 😘 xxx

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Pookymama
Pookymama
in reply to Niki_B

Oh Niki, sounds like you've had such an awful time. It can all be so cruel and debilitating to take can't it!

I can empathise with feeling mentally unwell around ivf, there were massively low periods I didn't think I'd be able to pick myself back up. I had counselling and was off work for 3 months.

We definitely need to take extra care of ourselves at such sensitive times where all our hopes, dreams and energies are in the balance.

I think listening to your instinct on this and taking some time to recover is really wise as we definitely need some time to repair and regain our strength after such physical and emotional knocks.

Be gentle with yourself lovely. Maybe consider some counselling and therapeutic/holistic self-care like yoga and mindfulness to get you back in tune with your body.

I hope your appointment went well and that your positive outcome is just around the corner.

Love and hugs xxx

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Niki_B
Niki_B
in reply to Pookymama

Thank you. Yes both my doctor and I agreed a wee break is a good idea 😊 so I will start my first FET in january i think. Its just coming into summer here in new zealand so I shall enjoy the weather and Xmas and just do me for once 😊 thank you for your kind words xxx

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Pookymama
Pookymama
in reply to Niki_B

Aw, I'm glad you're taking some time out for you, you fully deserve the relief and peace of being away from it all for a while. I'm sure it'll do you good! And hey, my instinct told me to wait til January too and look what happened here so you never know!

Either way, sounds like you have a good plan to enjoy the weather and Christmas and just be free to be you.

Massive luck and love to you xx

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Niki_B
Niki_B
in reply to Pookymama

Thanks Sweetpea again massive congrats to you, I wish you a happy and healthy pregnancy 😘xxx

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genten

Wow!! And yes this is real! Congratulations 💐xxz

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Pookymama
Pookymama
in reply to genten

Thank you hun! Xx

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Lou7744

This is fab news! So pleased for you 💕 xx

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Pookymama
Pookymama
in reply to Lou7744

Thank you lou! Xx

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Cinderella5

Holy moly Pookymama!! Ah I'm so excited for you! I've known you on here for some time & so so so happy for you!!🙌🙌😃💕 You deserve this honey!xx

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Pookymama

Thank you Cinderella! How're things with you? Xxx

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Cinderella5

I'm good thanks! Just waiting to start FET to get going again!🤞xx

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Suzannah1985

Amazing news, congratulations xx

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Pookymama

Thank you Suzannah! Hope your journey is progressing well! Xx

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gcw104

Aww congratulations x so this was a natural conception?

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Pookymama
Pookymama
in reply to gcw104

Thank you! Yes, unbelievably it was a natural conception after trying for 5 years, low ovarian reserve diagnosis and failed ivf cycles! Guess we have to keep believing as this could happen to us all! How're things with you hun? Xx

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gcw104
gcw104
in reply to Pookymama

Aw that’s great so happy for u. I’m fine thank you I’m in the long tww got another week.

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Pookymama
Pookymama
in reply to gcw104

Tww feels like the longest time ever doesn't it! I hope this week goes ok for you and you have good news at the end of it lovely! Xx

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kumkums

Congratulations. God be praised, this is good news. I pray the pregnancy continues perfectly and you get to hold and grow your little one in Jesus' name.

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Pookymama
Pookymama
in reply to kumkums

Thank you so much for your kind prayers for us. It means a lot! How're things going for you? Xx

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LegoBatgirl

Congratulations and wishing you a happy and healthy pregnancy x

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Pookymama

Thank you hun! Hope you're well! Xx

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Masha111

Pookymama, congratulations! it happened when you least expected it. God tests our patience to see how much blind faith we have in him. Everything happens for a reason. I pray you have a healthy and happy pregnancy🙏. You deserve it.

Everyone TTC deserves it, your time will come. Just dont give up.

Lots of love xxxx

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Pookymama
Pookymama
in reply to Masha111

Aw, thank you for your lovely message! You're quite right about God testing our patience. I'd kinda lost my faith but we're going to church tonight to thank God.

I pray for your every success and all our successes too for as you say, we all deserve for our very own miracles to come! Xx

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Littledee88

Congratulations xxx

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Pookymama

Thank you! Xx

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Elynn

What great post...congratulations.

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Pookymama
Pookymama
in reply to Elynn

Thank you hun! Xx

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Flimzee

What a lovely surprise! Congratulations to you xxx

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Pookymama
Pookymama
in reply to Flimzee

It was yes! Thank you so much xx

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Oh wow congratulations! You’re not the first lady on here to get a surprise natural bfp and they’re always just the best stories. Congratulations xx

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Pookymama

Thank you Lizzie! I always loved hearing such posts too! How're things with you? Xx

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Lizzielizzielizzie

They’re good thank you. Try to enjoy the next few weeks and months xxx

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Amanda2522

Congratulations!!

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Pookymama

Thank you! Xx

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Lowamh

Congratulations, that’s amazing. Just goes to show that it can happen x

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Pookymama
Pookymama
in reply to Lowamh

I know! Think because of all we go through to get there we often believe things like this only happen to other people, but I guess it's worth having faith afterall! How're things with you? Xx

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MrsH007

Wonderful to read 🙏🏻❤️

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Pookymama
Pookymama
in reply to MrsH007

Thank you MrsH! How're things with you? Xx

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MrsH007
MrsH007
in reply to Pookymama

Ah nervously waiting for my 12 weeks scan although I’m 13 now, it’s later this week. So nervous but I’m sure you know what that feels like. It’s because we want it so much ❤️🙏🏻❤️

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londonrc

Fantastic news! I totally love stories like this! All the best with this exciting pregnancy!

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Pookymama
Pookymama
in reply to londonrc

Aw, thank you London, felt a bit uncertain posting in case it upset anyone but I've always loved seeing stories like this too as it gave me hope to keep believing! Best wishes to you too xx

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Aleelilook

Oh wow!!! Congratulations!! Xxx

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Pookymama

Thank you Alee! How're things with you? Xx

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Aleelilook

Not bad, just preparing for the next round, so I’ve got the scratch in two weeks and then it’s full steam ahead! Xxx

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Swim32

Congratulations X X X

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Pookymama
Pookymama
in reply to Swim32

Thank you! Xx

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Yogagirl37

Wonderful new, congratulations!

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Pookymama

Aw, thank you yogagirl! I too am a yogagirl and I believe it certainly helps in many ways! How're things going for you? Xx

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Yogagirl37

Not so great unfortunately, but trying to stay positive 😘

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Littleflower82

This is amazing, what a lovely read, congrats and take care x

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Pookymama

Thank you little flower. Best wishes for your journey too xx

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precioce

Congratulations. So pleased for you. Hope you have a lovely smooth pregnancy.xx

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Pookymama
Pookymama
in reply to precioce

Thank you lovely! Hope things are going smoothly for you too! Xx

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Osayuwa

Awwww this is indeed a miracle and I rejoice with you. Congratulations and wishing you all the very best ahead.

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Pookymama
Pookymama
in reply to Osayuwa

Thank you so much for your lovely message! I hope your journey is heading in a positive direction! Xx

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Lu1u

Fantastic!! Congratulations! Great to read!! Xx

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Pookymama
Pookymama
in reply to Lu1u

Thank you lovely. How're things going for you? Xx

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CC2018

Congratulations! I hope you have a healthy pregnancy xx

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Pookymama
Pookymama
in reply to CC2018

Thank you! Hope you're well? Xx

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Lynnr54

Congratulations! I truly hope this is finally your time x

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Pookymama
Pookymama
in reply to Lynnr54

So do I hun! How're things going for you? Xx

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aamiller405

aww congratulations! xo

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Pookymama

Thank you! Xx 😊

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MrsAdzee

Aww congratulations, lovely news xx

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Pookymama
Pookymama
in reply to MrsAdzee

Thank you so much! Xx

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Noobs

Congratulations😀xx

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Pookymama
Pookymama
in reply to Noobs

Thank you! Xx

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everhopeful83

Wonderful news, congratulations xxx

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Pookymama

Thank you lovely! How're you? Xx

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everhopeful83

I’m good thanks! Just waiting on AF coming so can start round 2🤣xxx

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Pookymama

Exciting times ahead then hun! Massive luck to you xx

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Babyjoshua

Wow congratulation wishing u all the luck and sending lots of prayers on ur Jon into motherhood.

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Pookymama

Thank you so much! Hope your journey is going well? Xx

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Babyjoshua

Sorry but my first ivf cycle failed so enjoy ur magical moment

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Pookymama

I'm so sorry hun. I understand the years of heartache and the cruelty of BFNs and loss. How're you coping lovely? Do you have a plan going forward? Xx

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Babyjoshua

Well it's been so hard to scope because after my BFN I had about 7-9 persons who are close to me like family is pregnant even my lil brother is having a baby so it's been rough. Moving forward in hope to try it again because I had sum leftoverstuff from the fresh tranfer.

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AJJ123

Wow those are very strong lines, congratulations! Xx

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Pookymama
Pookymama
in reply to AJJ123

Thank you! Yes, I couldn't believe it! Hope all is well with you! Xx

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AJJ123
AJJ123
in reply to Pookymama

Not really to be honest, but who knows maybe one day I’ll get lucky like you have xx

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Pookymama
Pookymama
in reply to AJJ123

Oh noo, I'm sorry you find yourself in a not great place hun. This journey is so cruel and feels never ending sometimes doesn't it. If you ever want to talk I'm here ok. And I pray for your miracle to come. Big hugs xx

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AJJ123
AJJ123
in reply to Pookymama

Well, never mind me. Enjoy this fabulous time. Congratulations, you’ve gone through a lot so it’s fantastic news xxx

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Pookymama
Pookymama
in reply to AJJ123

Thank you lovely! Hope you're ok xx

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emma-jane-30

This is fantastic news!! What a lovely little miracle.

Congratulations and good luck with the rest of your pregnancy, I hope it’s not to stressful xxx

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Hidden
Hidden

Ah what a lovely read. Congratulations hun xx

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CBOO1

Congratulations, so lovely to read as someone who regularly loses hope!! Xx

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sana__leo

Wow its a miracle congrats

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brendalv

it's a miracle!I'm so glad for you!!! Thanks for sharing this sweet moment, that's lovely <3

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Core

Congratulations and thanks for sharing your amazing story xx

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LaurajaneF

Ah Congrats! I love stories like this thanks for sharing ! XX

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magda22

This is amazing, thanks for the post. I hope you have an easy and smooth pregnany, lots of love and congrats xx

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