So confused, but happy confused?!

[KTL80]

So a bit of background.... been TTC for 3 years and were diagnosed with 'unexplained infertility'. Had a successful fresh round of IVF this time last year, but tragically we lost our daughter due to an insufficient placenta at 23 weeks, just before Easter this year.

We had a frozen transfer in August but this sadly was a BFN.

Here's where I am confused.... I got my period a few days after stopping all the meds following the BFN which lasted approx. 4 days. We went back to the clinic who said we could have another frozen transfer at the start of my next cycle. I have all the drugs etc. so we have just been waiting for day 1. My cycles are usually 31-32 days but I did a bit of research and there is lots of info out there about how the first full cycle after a failed frozen transfer is very often much longer that your usual cycle.

Today is day 38 and I was planning on phoning the clinic just to explain why I hadn't yet phoned for my stim scan. On a whim I did a test first thing just to rule out the practically impossible, but then this happened.........

Can I really be pregnant?! I am just in complete shock, and I expect someone will tell me that you often get false positives the month after a failed frozen transfer?? I'm just so frightened that this somehow isn't real???

To add to all of this, today is WaveOfLight day, which marks the end of Baby Loss Awareness week. Hubby and I will be lighting a candle at 7pm tonight in memory of our daughter. My silly sentimental side wants to believe this is a gift from her.

And it's hubby's 40th tomorrow!

[Anya80]

Just wanted to wish you happy 9months! Congratulations to you both💗

[DianeArnold Partner Nurse Fertility Network UK]

KTL80. My goodness me! Just the sort of surprise I like to see. Well, judging by the test stick you are holding, there is a pregnancy there, so well done! Perhaps a gift from your daughter as you say, and an early birthday gift for hubby. Lovely that you are remembering your daughter by lighting the candle tonight too. Keeping everything crossed that all continues to go well for you both. Diane

[Hidden]

So sorry for your loss of your daughter. 😢

But huge congratulations on your pregnancy. What a beautiful surprise! And happy birthday to your hubby for tomorrow! What an amazing present 💝

Wishing you the best with this pregnancy ✨❤️🌈 xoxo

[Cinderella5]

So sorry to hear about your previous loss. Well it certainly looks like a positive test! Congratulations, what a fab birthday present for hubby!xx

[genten]

So sorry for the loss of your little girl.

Congratulations! Lovely news and does seem like a gift from your daughter. Xxx

[wemma83]

Definitely a beautiful gift sent down from heaven Congratulations! xxx

[Sweets1]

So sorry about your loss firstly💕

Big congratulations on your pregnancy, lots of luck 💖xx

[Shil11]

Aww!! That is a miracle... congratulations!!! God bless

[Olivia1980xxx]

I’m so sorry hun for loosing your baby girl but looks like God is there 🙏 Looks like u r pregnant and I wish u healthy 9 months long pregnancy 🙏🍀🍀

[KTL80 in reply to Olivia1980xxx]

Hi Olivia1980,

Thank you for such kind words. We just had the first anniversary of losing our baby girl so been a rubbish few days (it harshly coincided with mother's day so that was nice!).

Sadly I miscarried the pregnancy referred to in this post (posted 6 months ago), at about 6-7 weeks. Did another FET in December which was a BFN.

Gearing up for a final throw of the dice with our last frostie later this month.

I wish you all the best for tomorrow, looks like you're well prepared with the shopping!

Got my fingers and toes crossed for you hun.

Katie

x

[Olivia1980xxx in reply to KTL80]

U deserve hun after what u went through 🙏

Almost 5 years ago we had first cycle but end up BFN. We took time to heal and find out bit more about ivf .

We change the clinic and meds which was the best thing we did and we felt more positive. We cry on OTD we couldn’t believe that we had BFP . My baby girl is 22 months old and gift from God 🥰🙏

Because I’m 39 this year last November we had visited us clinic what the best to do . To use the one frostie what we have or to go through fresh . After AMH test showed 5.7 my doctor recommended to go through fresh . So we start on 27 feb. They increase my dosage of gonal f 375iu . I was little bit longer on spray because my oestrogen level was high which they find the cyst on my left ovary. They drain the cyst so I could start my injections.

On EC they collected 14 eggs 10 was mature and 6 fertilise.

On ET I had in my mind to put 2 in but embryologist highly recommend only one grade A+ saying “this embryo know what to do “..so after discussion we agree for only one and 3 other embryos they freeze.

I got some positive and negative pictures in my head ...always thinking maybe I should put those 2 in ....give my self extra chances.... I just cannot face negative outcome 😔 I hope I’m wrong...but we will see 2morrow ..🙏🙏 I’m sore for long post xx