Do you ever think infertility is making you go mad?
Here are some things I categorically know...I had egg collection in May, and I know this will mess up my cycles. My first period after initial bleed after collection is 5 days late, and I’ve had minimal spotting (I always spot about a week before).
I know that it’s basically impossible for us to conceive naturally.
I know that we’ve also had very little sex this month.
I know that I’m generally a pretty realistic and pragmatic person.
And yet, there is a tiny part of my brain that is so irrational and so bloody persuasive....that convinces me that I could be pregnant. It could be a miracle! I could be the one against all the odds!
It’s exhausting and I’m so annoyed at myself for listening to that voice. Someone change the record.
The spotting has got heavier now so know I’ll be coming on soon, which is good that’ll mean we’re one step closer and I can stop thinking about it.
I’m usually fine about my period but I think it’s just the anticlimax of doing a freeze all cycle and waiting to find out when the FET will happen.
Sorry for rant, I’m just bored of listening to that devil on my shoulder!
Please say others have this as well??