Low weekend

[Nix44]

Yesterday was quite a low...I think it was a mistake to go to that babyshower....I really though I’d be ok, as I’m usually good at manageing my emotions. And nothing major happened while I was there, I talked, smiled, gave presents. But by the time we were finishing up I felt as if there was a train on top of me. I hadn’t expected the avalache of emotions and exhaustion to hit so hard.

I’m just so tired of just carrying on. Wednesday when we got the news I was at work. My husband came to me and said he just wanted to let me know that he had called the clinic early and the blood test result showed that the baby wasn’t sticking. He meant well, thought I wouldn’t have time to call, but his timing was bad. I had to turn around and go back in, see the patients that were waiting for me, smile, call people, explain stuff to the student spending time with us, and only about 3 hours later could finish up and take some time to process what had happened.

Forgive the glum post, I know tomorrow will be a new day with more energy, but this weekend is just a bit of a low.

Hope for good news for everyone who is waiting xx

[Hidden]

You poor thing.

A baby shower this week is hardcore with all you have going on - but you didn't know how you would feel until you did it....

When my sister in Law announced her 2nd pregnancy right after our failed IVF my face almost cracked trying to smile. The day after I was numb....

I have no words that can help but wanted to send a big hug. 😙

Hope you can take good care of yourself and begin to recover.

Xxx

[Nix44 in reply to Hidden]

Thanks EB...appreciate that x

[Star9]

I’m sorry you’ve had such a terrible time this week with everything.

Baby showers are never easy, but after what you’ve been through just before it, you’re a stronger person than I would have been in the same situation, to even go to it. Sending you love and hugs 💕😘xxx

[Nix44 in reply to Star9]

Thanks Star, I think it was poor judgement on my side, should have realised that it wasn’t a good idea... Appreciate the msg x

[Tugsgirl]

You were so so brave to go. Thinking of you xx

[Nix44 in reply to Tugsgirl]

Thank you and massive congratulations on your wedding! xx

[Apdp]

Hope you are ok. Totally understandable how you are feeling!!!! X

[Nix44 in reply to Apdp]

Thanks Apdp...How are you doing? Good luck for your ICSI, hope the waiting goes quickly x

[Apdp in reply to Nix44]

Not been feeling great, always have a really sore head when I’ve had a prostap injection and this heat isn’t helping the flushes 😂😂😂. How u feeling today? I usually book a wee night away after my treatment or a hol to cheer myself up. Hope you’ve got stuff organised to look forward to x

[Nix44 in reply to Apdp]

Poor thing, the things our our bodies have to go through! Hope the headaches get better!

I’m feeling better today, thanks. Wish I could take some time off, but difficult with work...a night away sounds like a plan though.

[Apdp in reply to Nix44]

You defo should, try and take your mind off things. I bought a puppy in jan and she keeps me going, but drastic mind u lol. I talk away to her all the time x

[Nix44 in reply to Apdp]

Lol love the puppy idea 😁 Luckily have a very fluffy goldendoodle at home already, so will just have to smother him some more with cuddles.

[Telford1]

No wonder it was very hard on you emotionally. Give yourself a break for feeling down, wrap yourself up in a big hug to self. You deserve a massive well done still going and putting on a brave face for your friend. You can be proud of yourself for going. Xxx

[Nix44 in reply to Telford1]

Thanks Telford...Appreciate that! How are you doing? Good luck with your FET!

[Wishfully]

You are a courageous lady, sucking it up and going to the baby shower with your head held high. But I think you need to step back and allow yourself to cry now... it’s hard to accept just how much an early loss can affect your day-to-day interactions, but we’re not robots after all 🤖

There is a positive in here, and that’s your body is willing and able to get pregnant... it’s just that this time the embryo wasn’t quite right. There is every chance that your very next attempt, whether IVF or natural, will be your time 🤞🌈 I fell pregnant naturally, the very next time I ovulated, after my last early loss. I am now 16 weeks! I very much hope that the same thing happens to you 😊🙌

Sending out huge hugs & positivity to you and DH xx

[Nix44 in reply to Wishfully]

Thanks Wishfully, that’s really encouraging, I really hope it’s the case for us... Massive congratulations to you for the BFP and yay for 16 weeks that’s fantastic! Hope everything goes well for the rest of your pregnancy x

[Cinderella5]

Well done you for attending the baby shower, Im not sure I would have even attempted to go so fair play to you. Your emotions are bound to be all over the place. Juts take it a day at a time, sending hugs.xx

[Nix44 in reply to Cinderella5]

Thanks Cinderella, not sure it was my smartest move...think I’ll know better next time 😬. Good luck for preparing for your FET, may this be your time for a BFP xx

[Cinderella5 in reply to Nix44]

Well we learn what our limits are and sometimes we just don't realise that we need to be kinder to ourselves and avoid crappy things like these!!

Thank you, appreciate it!xx

[Hidden]

Aww i dont think i would have been able to go. I went out with the girls on Saturday night to let my hair down and had a laugh. Told one of them about my journey and she said she had ivf and it didnt work so her husband got her a puppy and thats now her baby 😂. Things have just come crashing down now though when an old friend has just posted on fb that shes pregnant with her 3rd. Shes 42 too and very overweight.Feel like crying ive been trying since 36 and am fit and healthy Grrrr. Life can be cruel xx