Am I weird 🙈

[Star9]

So tomorrow afternoon I have my first scan. Is it wrong that I am not looking forward to it at all and actually just don’t won’t to go? I am so scared that something will be wrong and it will be taken away. I feel bad as surely it’s something I should be excited for and should be positive.

I think I’v waited longer for the first scan as tomorrow I will exactly 8 weeks. The pessimistic me thinks well I’v had longer in my first ever pregnancy bubble and the positive side thinks well if all is ok I will be closer to to the next scan.

I am eternally grateful for my my BFP and know we are lucky to be here, but I am really struggling with this bit.

[Jonesjp]

I’ve never been in your situation hunny, but I’m pretty sure it’s exactly how I would feel, when you want something so badly and have worked so hard physically and emotionally to get there I think it’s natural to be scared stiff that it may be taken away from you. Wishing you lots of luck for your scan tomorrow x x x

[Star9 in reply to Jonesjp]

Thank you so much, yes there is just so much that goes into getting us to this point xxx 😘

[Tugsgirl]

It’s really hard. Ivf pregnancies aren’t the same as natural conception pregnancies and we are robbed of a lot of the joy and innocence because of our infertility. Hoping that everything goes well for you tomorrow xx

[Star9 in reply to Tugsgirl]

Thank you, yes that is exactly it isn’t it. I had never realised how hard this bit would. xxx 😘

[penny24]

Hey star, I completely get it. I’ve only just got my Bfp and I’m terrified about the scan in 3 weeks. I’ve prepped my husband things can go wrong, even looked up what tests are done when. I agree with tugsgirl we are robbed of some enjoyment when it’s ivf. Try and look forward to it, you get to see your little bean! Hopefully u will feel differently after the scan, good luck xx

[Star9 in reply to penny24]

Thank you, I’m glad it’s not just me I have done exactly the same as what you describe too! Good luck with yours too xxx 😘

[Jenjen84]

I have my first scan on Thursday, I will be 7 + 5 and I’m petrified! I almost want to just stay in this bubble of having a positive pregnancy test forever! I think it’s natural to be nervous as it’s taken so much work to get here! Good luck for tomorrow.. 🍀 xxxx

[Star9 in reply to Jenjen84]

Yes wev worked so hard for this bubble we just don’t want it to burst. Wishing you all the best for Thursday xxx 😘

[Lizzielizzielizzie]

Hi I was 8 weeks 4 days at my first scan and it wasn’t enjoyable waiting for it. Before every appointment the fear increases for me as I worry that bad news will be coming.

[Star9 in reply to Lizzielizzielizzie]

It’s so tough isn’t it, I did wonder if the worry would ever cease xxx 😘

[Hidden]

Hun, if your weird 🙃 I'm a proper super freak for feeling this way! I had 3 scans in my EPU & would have done anything to avoid going to all of them. I didn't even want to look at my baby on the screen until the 3rd scan. I'm almost 15 weeks now & still fear everything. I hope you have a wonderful scan & start enjoying your pregnancy afterwards. I'd do anything to be enjoying my pregnancy but have far too much anxiety. How you are feeling is completely normal. Wishing you a happy & healthy pregnancy 😘 xx

[Star9 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you for making me feel normal! Its nice to know these feelings are not unusual. I think it’s as someone said with IVF etc we know how precious it all is. Good luck with the rest of your pregnancy xxx 😘

[LHow81]

It is hard I had bleeding in the early stages so the first scan I had I was 5w 6d and convinced nothing would be there, I then saw everything was ok but still had more bleeding. You just have to take each one as they come and it does start to get a little easier but you’re always wary until they’re crying in you’re arms. Then there are different worries but they’re here it’s easiwr. Good luck xx

[Star9 in reply to LHow81]

Thanks you, it’s a blooming tough journey isn’t it. Thank you for the reassurance xxx 😘

[CJem18]

Absolutely nothing wrong with that at all. It’s natural to be hesitant. I would be too. Keeping my fingers crossed for you that everything is ok x

[Star9 in reply to CJem18]

Thank you so much and for the reassurance xxx 😘

[Sarahlou01]

I feel like I could have written this post. We’ve got our viability scan on Wednesday when i’ll be 7 + 4 and both the hubby and I feel sick at the thought of it! Hope your scan went well xxx

[Star9 in reply to Sarahlou01]

Aww bless you it’s a tough bit this isn’t it. The scan was amazing, I was in tears and shaking before I even got in the room 🙈 but to see the heart beating 💗 is just magical and tearful 😂 Wishing you all the luck for Wednesday, let me know how you get on. Xxx 😘

[Sarahlou01 in reply to Star9]

That’s so lovely, it sounds amazing! I hope we have a positive experience. This bit waiting for the scan has been far worse than the 2ww! 😘xx

[Star9 in reply to Sarahlou01]

It definitely is worse, definitely the hardest bit, but worth it. I will keep my fingers and toes crossed for you for tomorrow 🤞😊 xxx