Drugs ordered...

[emu2016]

Drugs arrive Monday.

Why am I so emotional?

Struggling so much this time to find my inner IVF Warrior. Anyone else had feelings like this?

xx

[AllWeNeedIsluv]

Hi emu hun,

I can't share experiences but I'm sure it will be bringing up those experiences from previous cycles and all the worry and what ifs with it all, I just want to wish you all the best and lots of love for this journey hun. Big hugs 💗🤗😘

[emu2016 in reply to AllWeNeedIsluv]

Thanks. I’m sure you’re right. Just want to give up already and that’s not like me! x

[AllWeNeedIsluv in reply to emu2016]

One thing I know about you through this site is your far from a quitter, your naturally nervous. I'm hoping and praying for every success hun 💗🤗😘

[DianeArnold Partner Nurse Fertility Network UK]

Hi emu2016. Well, it just goes to show you what your memory can do to you. You've had a very Topsy Turvy ride over a long time, but now you're on your way with what is hopefully a truly successful cycle. Thinking of you as always. Diane

[emu2016 in reply to DianeArnold]

Thanks Diane. Hope you’re well. The mind can play funny tricks on you that’s for sure! x

[DianeArnold Partner Nurse Fertility Network UK in reply to emu2016]

Indeed it can. I'm not so bad thanks. xx

[Petree86]

There's always a worry isn't there hun. This battle is cruel with the crazy highs and debilitating lows. Don't worry, the inner warrior is always in you and it will come out in time. Always here for you xx

[emu2016 in reply to Petree86]

Thank you. Come on inner warrior! x

[tiger-cub]

All d best dear .

It's so so hard that words are not enough.

But d fact u r going at it is a sign of ur strength . Strength is not always in denying in what we are going through. Sometimes admitting to d fact we are terrified is strength .xx

[emu2016 in reply to tiger-cub]

That’s so true xx

[Hidden]

Hi emu, I totally know what you mean. My last round I did not have my head in the game at all. I'm afraid I've got no advice for you. I'm taking more time between this time and hopefully I'll be mentally and physically ready for the next round. Good luck!!

[emu2016 in reply to Hidden]

I’m sure I’ll get there! x

[Hidden]

Yes me... hubby booked to go next week and give his super sample to pitnwith eggs.... am struggling to hold the hope one day and positive the next.

This is hard as I know it’s the last chance x

You be fine hunny that warrior is right there inside will come just when you need it.

Xx

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

I’ve been thinking of you, huge huge hugs beautiful 😘😘😘 Please stay in touch xxxx

[emu2016 in reply to Hidden]

Hope so! x

[Hidden]

Me too 🙁

I’m nervous about starting this cycle, I feel completely out of control and I hate it. I hate not knowing and the unpredictability of it all. I feel emotional. I just want our family and I’m ready to be a parent but am fearful if that may not happen.

You are not alone ❤️

😘😘😘

[emu2016 in reply to Hidden]

It’s nice not to be alone. (Just about to reply to your message!) x

[Cinderella5]

I think getting the drugs makes it more real and along with that comes the reality of what we've already been through! I'm sure you get there, that warrior is just waiting to spring out when you need her!! Hugs xx

[emu2016 in reply to Cinderella5]

She’d better! z

[Cinderella5 in reply to emu2016]

For sure my lovely lady!!😘xx

[emu2016 in reply to Cinderella5]

Big love. When do you head to Athens next? x

[Cinderella5 in reply to emu2016]

I'm not sure thanks! I have repeat bloods in a couple of weeks. If they are ok then I can start planning....feels like it's getting to be the unreachable!!😥 I know it's not & I'm being a drama queen!😩 how are you guys getting on?! You can PM if you need a chat..!!xx

[emu2016 in reply to Cinderella5]

I love a drama queen! And we bloody deserve to be queens! x

[Hidden]

I totally understand. You will get the strength and the days when you allow yourself for a moment to dream if the outcome you want and let a little excitement in, and the dark days too.

Wishing you so much luck and hugs xx

[emu2016 in reply to Hidden]

Thanks xx

[Princes14]

She’s in there! 🙌🏼🏋🏻‍♀️💪🏼 keep fighting the good fight. You can do this 🍀💕🤞🏼

[emu2016 in reply to Princes14]

💪🏼💪🏼💪🏼

[Saya85]

Aww emu I can understand how you feel to some extent: before my first cycle I was so frazzled with all the hell of chasing up clinics and consultants and what I now have realised was a massive b12 deficiency as well as other vitamins.

If it’s just the worries from previous cycles then remember your ovaries don’t have such a great memory 😄 they will jump into this as if it’s the first time.

But I would say this takes such a strain on us that do keep your overall health as optimal as possible- especially with the long winter we’re having.

Vit D, C, B vitamins, iron folate and the rest but also magnesium !!

Try taking a magnesium salt bath (magnesium flakes or Epsom salts) just to replete the body- it helps with anxiety and making you feel rested.

Same with vitamins c for the adrenals - and vitamin D in the winter! Makes a massive difference.

we can’t shut our brains off all the time but we can certainly combat the biological anxiety - I finally feel rested, calm, balanced, and actually excited and alive for once!

Every little bit helps- but am keeping my fingers crossed for u xx

[Lizzielizzielizzie in reply to Saya85]

I love that- your ovaries don’t have such a good memory- it’s true! My ovaries have performed better every time! Now I’m hoping that my uterus can do the same!

[emu2016 in reply to Saya85]

My ovaries have no memories! Love it!

[emu2016 in reply to Saya85]

I’m taking a superduper dose of VitD as it was very low five weeks ago. Thanks for the salt bath. I think I’ll try that at the weekend! x

[Saya85 in reply to emu2016]

Ha I’m practicing what I preach- had some shocking bad news/family emergency just as we are starting our new round of ivf.

Now Resting out in a Magnesium bath.

I have noticed my response to bad news, stress etc is massively different. I am so calm and collected so I def would recommend to all 👍🏻

P.s b12 deficiency has beeen linked as a very real cause of infertility and miscarriage. It works with folic acid to make red blood cells and iron absorption too.

They always recommend folic acid for tissue growth etc but never check b12.

Like thyroid I’m sure it will be the next big thing to finally get noticed!

[emu2016 in reply to Saya85]

Oh thanks I’ll look at that. We too had some bad news a few weeks ago. Life throws some mental challenges for us. That’s for sure. Hope your treatment is a smooth ride. So I’m def trying that bath. Easy to find the salts?

[Saya85 in reply to emu2016]

Thanks- I feel healthier so in a better place already to last year.

Yes Epsom salts are very easy to find- most chemists will have them.

But I find the ‘better you’ brand of magnesium flakes (online or Holland and Barrett’s) and their oil sprays amazing.

I rub oil into my legs etc or even stomach area for cramps etc

It’s brilliant for menstrual cramps or issues we have with meds etc and also indigestion (think milk of magnesia- it was always a traditional supplement)

Oh and you’re probably aware already but I would make sure you’re taking vit K2 mk7 co factor with your vitamin D, so calcium is directed to bones not blood x

[Tugsgirl]

Your emotions are understandable. You can do this 💪🏻 xx

[emu2016 in reply to Tugsgirl]

Thanks you x

[Se99]

Absolutely! I think the problem is after a number of cycles it’s just become part of life and you can’t see it ending! I’m just starting cycle no 5 and I have no idea how I feel! I’ve always found when you actually get going with all the drugs and appointments your inner strength returns, keep going, you can’t be a warrior every day 😉

[emu2016 in reply to Se99]

Good luck you. Thinking of you xx

[Lizzielizzielizzie]

You’ll feel better once you get started and are in the swing of it again. Anticipation is the worst!

[emu2016 in reply to Lizzielizzielizzie]

So true!

[Hidden]

My drugs arrive tomorrow (first ever cycle) and I'm feeling very emotional today so perhaps there's a correlation! Hope you're feeling better today. xx

[emu2016 in reply to Hidden]

How was the delivery? All out and checked? x

[Hidden in reply to emu2016]

They're arriving tomorrow. Just had a text confirming a morning delivery instead of an afternoon as requested. Good job they're going to work and I've not taken the afternoon off to wait in for them! X

[emu2016 in reply to Hidden]

Oh my! I’d have been stressing out at that! Mine are coming to work too. They only do morning deliveries too! So I didn’t have much choice x

[Hidden in reply to emu2016]

I assume they'll be ok in the cool box until home time? X

[Kyell2]

I’ve not got to the ordering drug stage yet but from all your previous posts I know you can do this.

Sending lots of positive thoughts and I hope things start to look up soon xx

[emu2016 in reply to Kyell2]

Thanks so much xx

[KJLee]

My drugs arrived last week and I don't think I was mentally ready for it... Felt so overwhelmed! I'm doing ok now though, started meds on Wednesday and just taking each day as it comes.

Just remember you're not alone and we're here if you need it. Sending positive thoughts xx

[emu2016 in reply to KJLee]

Thank you. So lovely. Hope you’re doing well with injections! x

[Hidden]

Morning lovely - just wanted to check in and make sure you're doing ok today. Hope the drugs arrive as planned and you see it as a positive step. Thinking of you. x

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Support from here too. Hope you havr a lovely day. And on another plus side you get some pretty good ice blocks too.

xxx

[emu2016 in reply to Hidden]

Thanks! I need no more ice! It’s a miracle I made it to work in one piece! Ha! x

[Hidden in reply to emu2016]

😂

[emu2016 in reply to Hidden]

Thanks MrsB... I think they arrive after 9. Donor chosen yesterday too. So making small steps xx