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I knew it would be a BFN due to the fact of my very regular and heavy period that showed it’s ugly face on Friday.. Officially did my first ever test in over 2 years and it confirmed the worst! It’s my first IVF attempt so I know that it could still work, just seems like it will only ever be a dream tho! I know I will pick myself up in time and get ready for the next round but all I keep thinking is ‘What if this really is it?’ How do you prepare yourself for the possibility of more heart ache?

To all you women who have had multiple failed attempts and who find the courage to keep going, I take my hat off to you! You are amazingly strong beings.. xxx

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Oh no Jendobson 😢. Even tho AF arrives we always hold onto that tiny bit of hope that maybe just maybe the dr will call with a positive. Be kind to yourself is the advice everyone has given me and I pass that onto you. Focus on the things that make you grateful and you will find the strength to move forward to the next round. I went for my bloods this morning but I already know the outcome so not too bothered with them. Sending you big hugs xx

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Thank you xx

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Tugsgirl

Really sorry. I don’t know the how but I know the why. Because you want it so badly, that’s what will spur your fight on, maybe not today or tomorrow but in time you’ll feel strong enough xx

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cls37 in reply toTugsgirl

This is so true..... I’ve only ever had BFN and the pain when it fails is so bad. I end up looking at it ‘do I sink or swim’ so from somewhere I find the energy to pick myself up and try to prepare for the next time. Doesn’t happen overnight and is hard but like my best friend tells me ‘pull your big girl pants on’. Thinking of you as the pain hurts so bad xxx

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Thank you xx

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Jenjen84 in reply toTugsgirl

Thank you xx

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Jenjen84 in reply toTugsgirl

Thank you xx

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Smang

I’m so sorry to hear Jendobson, BFN’s are always a heartbreaking. Take some time for yourself and grieve. We are much more stronger and resilient than we think we are, it will happen for us some way or another xx

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Jenjen84 in reply toSmang

Thank you xx

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DianeArnoldPartnerNurseFertility Network UK

Hi jendobson. So sorry to hear this, as it's no easy route having to go through IVF or any fertility treatment. I hope you've got plenty of support, and I know the ladies here will be here for you, whenever. Thinking of you. Diane

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Thank you xx

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E_05

So sorry to read this, I agree I don’t often know how we continue but for me my desire (desperation) to have a baby continues to our weigh the thought of more treatment. Take to re build your strength, you’ll find your able to go again in your own time xx

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Dunla

I’m so very sorry to hear this. This is such a difficult time for you. Focus on taking care of yourself in the coming days to begin with. In time it does feel less raw, even though the pain may never subside completely. In a few weeks or months you might be able to contemplate your review appointment and begin to discuss your next step. For now, take things at your own pace and get through one day at a time xx

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Jenjen84 in reply toDunla

Thank you xx

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Cinderella5

Sorry to hear that! I dont know where we find the strength from but we do and hopefully through time you will too. Be kind to yourself and treat yourself to something nice to reward yourself for having to go through all of this! Sending hugsxx

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Jenjen84 in reply toCinderella5

Thank you! Xx

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Wow! Thank you ladies! You are all such lovely people and say such nice words! I can’t beleive it’s taken me over 2 years to find you all! ❤️ Xx

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Tugsgirl in reply toJenjen84

It’s a horrible horrible journey but once you find people who understand everything seems that bit more bearable. Good luck for next time xx

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Jenjen84 in reply toTugsgirl

I think it gives us strength to keep going knowing there are others fighting through the journey too and knowing we’re not alone.. Thanks for the luck.. Same to you too xx

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Bekka6767

Hello, my dear friend. In order to accomplish something, you have to be optimistic. Having a pessimistic approach is just going to mess things up. It was just your first try. You still have so many chances. Be as strong as you really are. Getting everything the perfect way is not what happens in real life. Think more realistically my friend and keep trying.

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Jenjen84 in reply toBekka6767

Thanks Bekka.. It’s amazing how quickly I seem to be dusting myself down as I’m feeling a lot more positive today!

I spent most of last year feeling very unhappy and lost and I refuse to let myself go down that route again! Thank you for your kind words.. xxx

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