hi there - i have been a member for a while, reading your posts and taking courage and support from it all. I haven't posted as Ive almost been too afraid, but my first round of IVF failed this weekend - and Im just feeling incredibly lost and devastated.
I have a very very low AHM, my partner has a low sperm count and low mobility - after stims I only had two follicles produce 2 eggs, of which only one fertilised. On the day of ET (day 3) I had a grade 4 egg transferred , was told it was perfect 'beautiful' - waited for two weeks, took my test on friday and it was BFN, i got my period today (monday) which really made me realise its all over - i think i had been deluding myself that perhaps the test was wrong.
I just dont know how to begin to understand it all - I've done so much to try and make myself as healthy and as prepared possible (lost 2 stone, given up alcohol, given up caffeine, eating healthy - no sugar, processed foods, I take supplements, have acupuncture, fertility massage, exercise) - but maybe thats where I am coming undone? theres no reasons - it just doesn't work for some of us.