So very true! 💔

[Amanda86]

It's been an emotional day. I'm not someone who cries but I've almost broke down several times already out of nowhere.

*sigh*

I'll find the strength again.

[Tugsgirl]

You will. I will. We can do this xx

[NDE1987]

Oh hunny I'm so sorry your going this, sending big hugs your way xxx

[ditsy999]

so sorry you are going through this xx

[Missy_22]

We can do this!! Hang in there xxx

[emma-jane-30]

im so sorry lovely, to see it hasnt gone better today, there are no words that will make you feel better, just time is a healer and you will get your baba one day just keep holding on and dont give up. sending you a big hug. xxx

[Amanda86]

Thank you everyone. We've decided to be more open about our issues this time with family and close friends. I don't know if it'll make me feel any better or not but hopefully it'll help lift a weight off my shoulder. I carry a lot of guilt knowing our nearest and dearest don't even know about our journey. Xxx

[Gueritarubia in reply to Amanda86]

It made it a lot easier for me once I told people. You get so much more support and people will start looking out for you! The scariest, but also most beneficial, was telling my boss and three colleagues. They kept an eye on me, my workload and pressures, my sanity, ... especially at work where you're so exposed and vulnerable without your partner or besties, that was a huge help I have to say!

[Amanda86 in reply to Gueritarubia]

A few colleagues know and they've been great however I can't say the same for my boss. She's aware of my first. 2 miscarriages and the chance I had of miscarriage this time around. She agreed to "light duties" the first week but then went on to tell me it was no longer possible and that she's worked with several pregnant people and they haven't needed to be on light duties.

I guess next time round with her attitude like that I won't tell her, what's the point if she thinks I don't end any changes to my workload. I'm now hoping I'll have a new job by then though. Her response and lack of support has really disappointed me xxx

[_MrsC in reply to Amanda86]

This is terrible! If you feel it's getting too much, go to your dr and I bet they'd sign you off with stress. It shows a complete lack of care and understanding. I hope she treats you better next time. x

[City74]

Thinking of you Amanda at this sad time. xx

[CountryCat]

So sorry for your grief. I am sure it has been an extremely draining and difficult day for you.

Take care of yourself xx

[Hidden]

Thinking of you Amanda & sending some strength & hope xx

[Jaky76]

Xxxxxxx

[_MrsC]

Just remember we understand and we are here for you. You don't need to explain - we just know. I'm new to this group but I already feel like there are some invisible ropes connecting me to you all and I am no longer floating in my own sea of despair. x