I'm still in shock to be honest. Like it didn't happen. The scan lady really drew it out I was lying there in this deafening silence like oh my god...
But it seems the reason for the intense cramps is more than likely because we have two sticky beans! One is measuring just right for the time and has a really strong heartbeat, the other is about a week smaller and so they only picked up a flutter of a heartbeat as their machine couldn't quite get a reading on number 2 but they said sometimes this happens a lot and number 2 may catch up. Still so early days so I'm hesitant to be happy just in case, we have such a long way to go but definitely a better start to the year than last year. We are going back next week probably to get another scan to check on them because number 2 is so small but fingers crossed this is it now and this will be our time.
I've still got some nasty cramps but they said as long as I wasn't having nasty bleeding this can be normal. Thank you everyone for your well wishes today and yesterday. Will keep you all updated xxx