BFP & then BFN.... its happened again 😟

[Nat6]

Hi ladies just to let you know that after my agonising 2ww (I know u understand how that feels) it has resulted in another chemical pregnancy. That's now 3 chemicals. My body was trying to accept the blastocyst again & I started getting heightened sense of smell, achy boobs, dizziness & I tested 2 days early to get a faint positive. I didn't get excited as this has happened before & sure enough I then got a negative & now my period. The only positive for me is that I can narrow down where a problem seems to be occurring.

I really thought this time it might happen for us. So now to try & work through the emotional turmoil again. All I keep thinking about is why & how by the time they discover what's wrong my fertility age would have decreased. I just want to know so that it can be treated. I'm still to have checks done but no idea how that process works mid IVF cycles or how long it takes to have them all done. Any ideas?

Feeling stressed & frustrated today, also tearful.

Thank goodness for this forum!

[misswinky34]

😢 oh no!! That's very cruel. I'm really sorry Hun I knew you were being cautious but is still hard not Bev exited when you see that second line however faint. I hope you can get some answers Hun. I'm really sorry again 💔

[Nat6 in reply to misswinky34]

Thank u. I've been doing ok until today & just starting to hit a wall. Having a day where u start to feel very alone & I'm desperately trying to stay strong. C

[misswinky34 in reply to Nat6]

We're u taking progesterone can can I ask?

[Nat6 in reply to misswinky34]

Yes I was. EVerything that happened this time is like last time & the time before. Except the first time I was pregnant for a bit longer & then miscarried at work.

[misswinky34 in reply to Nat6]

Oh honey. I'm so sorry. My friend is in the exact same position she's just had her 3rd chemical but this was the first time they tried her with progesterone on this cycle which still ended in chemical. with this one only her and her husband and boss knew about this round because she just doesn't dare get excited. It's just brutal. I hope your getting lots of hugs right now ❤️ Xx

[Nat6 in reply to misswinky34]

Thanks. Yes we didn't tell anyone this time either & it felt really nice having it more private. Going to see my nephew today who always puts a smile on my face. Xx

[Tugsgirl]

Sorry to hear this 😞

[vic77]

Huge hugs to you xxxx

[boothy1883]

I'm so sorry to hear this Hun, it must be horrible to see that positive line to thrnhave it taken away so quickly. I really hope you get some answers soon xx

[MommaBear16]

I'm sorry to read this Nat, sending love and wishing you well for whatever you choose to do next x x x

[Sunny_skies]

I am so sorry to hear this happening again. I am sure this point in time you have filled with so many emotions. Please try and take some time out away from IVF just to give yourself a break. It is easier said than done but that is how I managed to cope with my loss.

I did allow myself to grieve and not hold things back and I talked about it with close friends and family which also helped.

Everyone deals with things differently and I would advise that you do what is best which will help you through this difficult time.

We are all here if you want to talk. The good thing is, we can sympathise because we understand.

Lots of hugs. Xxx

[Fatooli28]

Real sorry for your news, keep strong, your here because in some way or another you can handle this and hold enough strength to keep going. Stay strong, huge hug to you and your partner. ❤️🙏🏼💋🔮🔮🔮🔮🔮🔮🔮

[City74]

I'm really sorry to hear this. It is devastating. I hope you are able to take care of yourself. xx