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[Cinamon181]

Hi,

I was originally on here as Cinamon180 but for some reason today was the day computers messed up. and isn't it always like that? Things just not going your way? I am 21 years old, I am going to be celebrating my daughters 1st birthday next week without the support of my fiancée as he has moved on and would like to put it all away. it has been a year and a half since I was told that her heart beat was gone and it was a year and 6 months ago where my happy 19-20 year old life was flipped, slapped, chopped up and thrown to the wolves. in the most non-depressing way to say it, I have spiralled and it has caused the most terrifying strain on our relationship. I'm so worried that I've ruined my soon to be marriage based on the fact that the child we never planned turned out to be the most amazing life altering thing i have ever experienced; even though she was ripped away from us due to no reason what so ever. I am too young to feel so broken they say. nothings wrong with me, I'll grow to have a thousand healthy babies..but none of that matters when the man you're with has begun hating the idea of having children because I can't let it go.. frig. Some one give me something..i have no support groups, goodbye walks, counselling or doctor's help where i live. My mom doesnt know how to help me as she has never had to experience this and none of my friends are willing to listen to this sad story so i keep it to myself all day every day and somtimes i just explode..like right now...

[Poohbear_1]

I am so sorry to hear how you are feeling inside it is only natural for any one to feel this way. After what has happened to you and it does not make it any easier with no professional help and a doctor that is clearly simple to not give you the help you need. But remember you are only young and you have got your whole life ahead of you. And if you need to talk or just rant about life in general to get it out on here is a good place to come it has helped me a lot as i have no professional help or other people that really understand where i am coming from but on here people do understand because we are all going through similar problems in life and symptoms of pain. Just take it one day at a time and try to be positive you will be in my thoughts and best wishes mate hang in there and just try to be strong. Poohbear'