Will it ever be me?

I nearly convinced myself I was pregnant this cycle, period was a couple or so days later than normal. But I knew not to hold by breath and that my body can play such tricks. And of course I was right, period arrived this evening. I can't stand the disappointment month after month - you'd have thought I'd have got used to it by now after 2 and a half years of trying! But each new cycle brings new hope, followed by bitter disappointment. Then there's 2 new pregnancy announcements at work and one pops up when I turn on facebook. When will it EVER be me? I wish someone could tell me if it was ever going to happen or not and I could get on with my life either way, the not knowing is heart wrenching.

So sod the endo diet for a night - big bar of chocolate for me!

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  • So sorry to hear of your frustration, I fear having the same feelings of disappointment as you and cannot being to comprehend how to manage.

    I have endo, an dysfunctional ovary that is missing a fallopian tube and another ovary that they are not sure works at all but won't investigate until I want to try for a family I have severe menstrual cramps with diarrhoea, vomiting, dizziness, weakness and flushes and therefore have my periods strictly controlled, so much so that I have resigned myself to thinking I would never try for my own family because of the consequences, combined with all of the emotions you are going through I think I;d very quickly give up.

    I admire your strength, and as long as you have strength keep going.

    ps how helpful has the endo diet been? I started it this week (although not completely)?

  • I took my last zoladex injection since February 1 and up till now, I've not seen my period and hot flush is not helping either. The generator has to be on all through the night and neighbours are complaining. Is there a way I can induce this menstrual flow and stop the hot flush. Will it has side effect if induced. Pls help

  • Hi,

    I can totally relate to how you're feeling. It took 7 years to get my son and I think pretty much the whole world was pregnant while I was trying! My son is now 6 and I am so grateful for him and if I am not able to have another child then I still feel like the luckiest woman alive for having him. However I am desperate to give him a brother or sister. I hate that he is growing up an only child (and won't have cousins either) I get very upset every time someone makes an announcement and I agree facebook is a horrible place to be right now! I hope you have success soon. Don't give up, I'm proof it can happen against the odds.

    Lucy xxx

  • I wish you all the luck in the world. I believe every decent person out there deserves the chance to be a parent. I really hope that one day your wishes come true, it will be worth the wait xxx

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