My New Years resolution should have been 'stop feeling guilty!'
This is another aspect of endo that I've come to accept as part of the disease. Guilt for letting down friends at the last minute, guilt about calling in sick when I know we're short-staffed, guilt about not being able to have sex, guilt about not being able to run around with my daughter, -you name it, I'm guilty!
Even though the common-sense part of my brain says 'Stop it! It's not your fault you're ill!', I still can't help feeling guilty sometimes. I think it must be some primeval instinct that I should be able to solve this problem called endo, then feel guilty because I can't. Talking about it helps as sometimes when you say it out loud you realise how ridiculuos it sounds. From now on when I feel like this I will chant in my head 'This is the Endo talking'.
Avoided pain killers as I took loads at the weekend, 50mg ami, cerezette, loratadine